Am I allowed to sit in my little corner and just cry all day...?
...because that's what I'm doing as of right now.
Just when I thought things were going well. Just when I thought that perhaps I was actually doing something right in my mother's eyes, it blows up in my face at the mention of a trip to FL.
Now, I KNOW that I didn't plan the trip very well. I'm very willing to accept the consequences of my actions, but to mother I'm still the very ungrateful, nonchalant, uncaring, irresponsible, know-it-all who doesn't want to help her family, financially, in the VERY least and thinks of no one but her and her friends.
I'm also SICK of being called scatter-brained. I have a lot of things on my mind...WHO DOESN'T?! This is why I carry a planner. But that's not enough for mom. It's NEVER enough.
The car has broken down...AGAIN. It's an old car and I don't really have the money to fix it. If that weren't enough, student loans will be rolling in soon.
I paid for my flight and now I cannot refund the ticket. *shrugs* I'm out almost 200 dollars, but I'm willing to just lose that rather than my whole checking account. Still it's not enough...
I know what I need to do, but she's just making it harder for me to think. Today, I don't feel like doing anything. I'm not focused, I'm unmotivated....
...I need to study for GREs and finish researching grad schools. I DON'T HAVE TIME FOR THIS. But, NO, she has to get in my head and make me feel worthless. Thanks MOM.
YOU HAVE BEEN SUCH A GIANT HELP EMOTIONALLY. Good LORD, I just feel like THROWING SOMETHING.
Dear God, please keep me from doing something stupid.
Love, Jackie
this is EXACTLY how I feel today...
Just when I thought things were going well. Just when I thought that perhaps I was actually doing something right in my mother's eyes, it blows up in my face at the mention of a trip to FL.
Now, I KNOW that I didn't plan the trip very well. I'm very willing to accept the consequences of my actions, but to mother I'm still the very ungrateful, nonchalant, uncaring, irresponsible, know-it-all who doesn't want to help her family, financially, in the VERY least and thinks of no one but her and her friends.
I'm also SICK of being called scatter-brained. I have a lot of things on my mind...WHO DOESN'T?! This is why I carry a planner. But that's not enough for mom. It's NEVER enough.
The car has broken down...AGAIN. It's an old car and I don't really have the money to fix it. If that weren't enough, student loans will be rolling in soon.
I paid for my flight and now I cannot refund the ticket. *shrugs* I'm out almost 200 dollars, but I'm willing to just lose that rather than my whole checking account. Still it's not enough...
I know what I need to do, but she's just making it harder for me to think. Today, I don't feel like doing anything. I'm not focused, I'm unmotivated....
...I need to study for GREs and finish researching grad schools. I DON'T HAVE TIME FOR THIS. But, NO, she has to get in my head and make me feel worthless. Thanks MOM.
YOU HAVE BEEN SUCH A GIANT HELP EMOTIONALLY. Good LORD, I just feel like THROWING SOMETHING.
Dear God, please keep me from doing something stupid.
Love, Jackie
this is EXACTLY how I feel today...
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