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This last week I:
1. Decided when and pretty much what I want to go back to school for.
2. Ran the accounting department practically by myself while the boss was out of town and got some nice kudos from the company.
3. Made out with 3 people, and had an absolute blast at mango.
4. Had no strings attached sex for the FIRST time in a year and a half.
5. Told elena that I had sex with someone other than her. She got horrifically mad, and told me it's 100% over and that she doesnt want to be friends at all and couldnt believe that I could DO such a thing.
6. I could not feel MORE relieved.
It's finally over. Like ripping a band-aid off.
I mean, I've been trying to break up with her for what feels like months, but nothing seems to work. I seem to get manipulated back into hanging out with her a few days later, and nothing ever changes, and we have never officially been together this whole time anyways. Even though I knew it would hurt her feelings, I knew deep down that it was the only way that I was going to end things. Is it bad that I feel this good about it? I've had this entire month to detach from her, and not really feel like I'm losing much. While she hates me because she claims this month was so great, and that she was really trying to figure out where this relationship was going.
It's been a year. It wasn't going ANYwhere.
It's amazing that I can feel like such a jerk, but feel so free at the same time. I finally did what I wanted, when I wanted, and stood up for myself, and didn't feel bad about it.
ahh...and now, life goes on.
1. Decided when and pretty much what I want to go back to school for.
2. Ran the accounting department practically by myself while the boss was out of town and got some nice kudos from the company.
3. Made out with 3 people, and had an absolute blast at mango.
4. Had no strings attached sex for the FIRST time in a year and a half.
5. Told elena that I had sex with someone other than her. She got horrifically mad, and told me it's 100% over and that she doesnt want to be friends at all and couldnt believe that I could DO such a thing.
6. I could not feel MORE relieved.
It's finally over. Like ripping a band-aid off.
I mean, I've been trying to break up with her for what feels like months, but nothing seems to work. I seem to get manipulated back into hanging out with her a few days later, and nothing ever changes, and we have never officially been together this whole time anyways. Even though I knew it would hurt her feelings, I knew deep down that it was the only way that I was going to end things. Is it bad that I feel this good about it? I've had this entire month to detach from her, and not really feel like I'm losing much. While she hates me because she claims this month was so great, and that she was really trying to figure out where this relationship was going.
It's been a year. It wasn't going ANYwhere.
It's amazing that I can feel like such a jerk, but feel so free at the same time. I finally did what I wanted, when I wanted, and stood up for myself, and didn't feel bad about it.
ahh...and now, life goes on.