the mistakes i've made
i tried to think about this all through my two hour shakesphere class, but i could only focus on "me". i have realized that sometimes i am a jerk. sometimes, through the intentions of joking, i say too much about a person, which can imply that they are less intelligent then they would like to be thought of. and all i can do right now i apologize. and think, for the rest of my tenure at Yeditepe, i have to be very careful what i say so i do not do this anymore. i would never intentionally belittle someone, and while it really blows that i've been told i do, i'm not going to argue. i will do all i can to fix it. once again, i'm sorry.
but half of me wants to say "but you ignore me half of the time, and you've said some really harsh stuff to me in front of people too" and i want to scream "we were all joking, no one thinks you are stupid" and that's the long and short of my feelings. but am i going to say this? hell no. because then i'll come across as more of a jerk because my entire being isn't wrapped up in how people see you, and no one else's is either.
i'm sorry that you feel like i've pointed out your flaws. hell, i'm sorry i pointed out your flaws. and i guess you have some idea (everyone does) about what it's like to be ignored. but when you look me in the face and tell me that what i said "wasn't important" and that is why you blantantly ignored me, what do you expect me to do? or how when i say "i'm sorry, you were right", you always ask me to repeat it and you are on some kick about how you are always right. oh that's cool.
but honestly, i know you are joking. so i forget that i'm angry that you constantly tell me i'm wrong and you are right because i know it's not a big deal. yeah, even in front of your parents i bowed out and said you were always right. so i'm not going to tell you how you feel, or how you should feel, i jsut want you to know that even when the feeling in mutual, i let it go.
but half of me wants to say "but you ignore me half of the time, and you've said some really harsh stuff to me in front of people too" and i want to scream "we were all joking, no one thinks you are stupid" and that's the long and short of my feelings. but am i going to say this? hell no. because then i'll come across as more of a jerk because my entire being isn't wrapped up in how people see you, and no one else's is either.
i'm sorry that you feel like i've pointed out your flaws. hell, i'm sorry i pointed out your flaws. and i guess you have some idea (everyone does) about what it's like to be ignored. but when you look me in the face and tell me that what i said "wasn't important" and that is why you blantantly ignored me, what do you expect me to do? or how when i say "i'm sorry, you were right", you always ask me to repeat it and you are on some kick about how you are always right. oh that's cool.
but honestly, i know you are joking. so i forget that i'm angry that you constantly tell me i'm wrong and you are right because i know it's not a big deal. yeah, even in front of your parents i bowed out and said you were always right. so i'm not going to tell you how you feel, or how you should feel, i jsut want you to know that even when the feeling in mutual, i let it go.