Sleepless in Ottawa
I've been up since 4:45 am.
To be more correct, I woke up screaming at 4:45 am, having nightmares about the two procedures scheduled for tomorrow early afternoon.
Haven't been able to get back to bed, so figured I'd get up and write a journal entry. Just can't seem able to deal with this whole business, as I'm in a state between panic and absolute terror. My previous experience with the colonoscopy was not pleasant, and the fact of the matter is that I don't expect to be doing well after the procedures are complete tomorrow.
In the meantime, I get to have a seriously intense liquid diet today, and then have to take the first dose of the ultra-strength laxative at 6:00 pm tonight. I don't expect to get any sleep tonight at all, and have to take the second u-s laxative at 6:00 am on Wednesday morning. Just going to have a seriously bad couple of days or more overall, and I need to figure out how to distract myself.
No point going back to bed, as I won't be able to sleep.
To be more correct, I woke up screaming at 4:45 am, having nightmares about the two procedures scheduled for tomorrow early afternoon.
Haven't been able to get back to bed, so figured I'd get up and write a journal entry. Just can't seem able to deal with this whole business, as I'm in a state between panic and absolute terror. My previous experience with the colonoscopy was not pleasant, and the fact of the matter is that I don't expect to be doing well after the procedures are complete tomorrow.
In the meantime, I get to have a seriously intense liquid diet today, and then have to take the first dose of the ultra-strength laxative at 6:00 pm tonight. I don't expect to get any sleep tonight at all, and have to take the second u-s laxative at 6:00 am on Wednesday morning. Just going to have a seriously bad couple of days or more overall, and I need to figure out how to distract myself.
No point going back to bed, as I won't be able to sleep.