It's been a while

[jinxjr]

Man haven't been on here in a while. Anyways lets see....today is Halloween. Not that bad of a day stayed at home dressed up in my angel costume and passed out candy. Things have been pretty rough lately lets see.... Ryah and I broke up :( probably the biggest/hardest thing right now. I love him sooo much but if he thought we needed a break there was nothin I could say or do really aside from giving him time and space. Im still hanging in there...I have met soooo many awesome people at my school that have been helping me. I haven't been able to really open up to anyone which is why I decided to come type for a bit. Did I mention my grandpa has lung cancer? That just about toped off everything. So not only was I trying to be tough with hiding how I torn I am with my Ryah situation but I have to remain strong for my dad. Its just so crazy I mean one thing after another. My faith in god, and the way I now do and look at things has changed just so much since attending Rochester YET I still can't understand where God is taking me on this ROUGH journey. Loosing my best friend,boyfriend, having a close realitive sick, and much more. WHY? I mean Im in a sorority/social club which I love with all my heart my brothers and sisters are awesome and the things we do are are helping others we have LOADS of fun. im also in a band :) Funny thing happened about 2 weeks ago a band performed and the cutest singer was playing guitar/singing. I can't even describe him. Anyways I didn't think i would ever really see him seeing as how it is a college LOTS of students.... WrONG. I saw him the next day it turns out he is one of my big brothers in my sorority NOT only that BUT he also part of the band we are starting. We have become really cool friends (he is sense of humor is a little odd BUT it makes me laugh which is a good thing) Well I think im going to go get things ready for school tomorrow then go to bed early.
byebye for now