Mood Yo-Yo
God my mood is just all over the place lately.
This week I went back to school, and while I felt like death most mornings on my way in, by the time I was leaving, I felt a lot better. The teachers were all eager to ask me about Hawaii and chat and stuff, so that's awesome. My classes went pretty well--the 二年生 particularly liked my game, and they've been among the hardest to impress this year.
My friends and I have been making tons of plans, just like I'm used to. I like being busy, of course, though I have to financially smart about it, too. Besides there's four games coming out this fall that I'm really excited about: New Smash Bros.; Zettai Zetsubou Shoujo Dangan Ronpa: Another Episode; Monster Hunter 4G; and Pokemon Alpha Sapphire and Omega Ruby. Everything but Another Episode is designed for multiplayer and I now have a group of nerd friends to play with that will make them infinitely more fun. (My entire interest in MH is thanks to it filling the hole playing tabletop RPGs has left in my soul the last few years.)
Yet I still feel jealous of people going out without me, I feel insecure about my Japanese ability, likability as a potential friend, and professional capacity for a well-paying job that I'd love. Guess I just feel a little like I'm stuck in a rut right now.
To combat that, I've been trying to be more active so I don't loaf around feeling sorry for myself. I've been taking walks. I've been studying Japanese with both textbooks and with real world things like games, Youtube Let's Plays, TV shows, and trying to translate narratives like creepypasta, comics, and fiction. I've been trying to get some writing or drawing done every day. I'm not completely good to go, but it's making me feel much better than I would otherwise.
Guess all I can do is keep moving forward.
This week I went back to school, and while I felt like death most mornings on my way in, by the time I was leaving, I felt a lot better. The teachers were all eager to ask me about Hawaii and chat and stuff, so that's awesome. My classes went pretty well--the 二年生 particularly liked my game, and they've been among the hardest to impress this year.
My friends and I have been making tons of plans, just like I'm used to. I like being busy, of course, though I have to financially smart about it, too. Besides there's four games coming out this fall that I'm really excited about: New Smash Bros.; Zettai Zetsubou Shoujo Dangan Ronpa: Another Episode; Monster Hunter 4G; and Pokemon Alpha Sapphire and Omega Ruby. Everything but Another Episode is designed for multiplayer and I now have a group of nerd friends to play with that will make them infinitely more fun. (My entire interest in MH is thanks to it filling the hole playing tabletop RPGs has left in my soul the last few years.)
Yet I still feel jealous of people going out without me, I feel insecure about my Japanese ability, likability as a potential friend, and professional capacity for a well-paying job that I'd love. Guess I just feel a little like I'm stuck in a rut right now.
To combat that, I've been trying to be more active so I don't loaf around feeling sorry for myself. I've been taking walks. I've been studying Japanese with both textbooks and with real world things like games, Youtube Let's Plays, TV shows, and trying to translate narratives like creepypasta, comics, and fiction. I've been trying to get some writing or drawing done every day. I'm not completely good to go, but it's making me feel much better than I would otherwise.
Guess all I can do is keep moving forward.