Feeling down and having trouble concentrating the last few days. Still being sick doesn't help, of course. Allergist visit May 20 ( Read more... )

1. My assistant, whom I have gotten hooked on Hidden Sweets in Harvard Square, went there last week and texted to inform me that the beloved grapefruit gummi candy of song and story has been discontinued, and that HS was already out. After partially recovering from my shock, I went to the internet and ordered a 3-lb bag of them, which has now ( Read more... )

I got shoes! Amazing shoes. They're not the "Elle Woods Astronaut shoes" (akycha got those) but they are sorcery. They also ate almost my entire state tax refund. Totally worth it. (Relatedly, I have a blister on my toe that might be infected. Ow.) It's vanishingly unlikely that I'll win Fluevogs for ten years, but what if I did. What if I ( Read more... )

In getting-over-my-ex news, I have:

• Watched a bunch of Leverage by myself.
• Made waffles (and done some other nontrivial cooking).
• Gotten to where going to the grocery store merely makes me feel badgerish rather than panicky.
• Finally thrown out the food that I had made to share with them when they decided to disappear instead.
• [TMI] Made it all the ( Read more... )

After two months I expected to feel better rather than more traumatized. Nope. It's worse than when Dad died -- I lost him and was very upset that he wasn't in the world any more, but I knew about death and realized it was going to happen even if I hadn't felt the loss yet. To an extent I support the existence of death: it's needed for change, ( Read more... )

The beauty of my situation right now is that there are so many worst case scenarios. It's really impressively efficient ( Read more... )

I had a fight with my mom recently about her committing me to buying a gift and attending a family event that I otherwise wouldn't have. It's not that I would never have been willing to, it's that she didn't talk to me and then assumed I would go along with her plans. I got pressure but no input. So I called her on that, and expressed my feelings ( Read more... )

[Lengthy explanation and discussion of a difficult life event.]

Me: But wait, the part where I was awesome is next.

Her: It sounds like you were already pretty awesome!

Me: Okay, the part where I was awesome and it didn't all go horribly wrong anyway.

This entry was originally posted at http://jinian.dreamwidth.org/665938.html. Respond ( Read more... )

One moment of being intensely pleased with myself: I decided that hateboners are filled with bile instead of blood. Am I right or am I right? (Also, then I said "HEADCANON". :D ( Read more... )

It turns out that, having bounced out of having been down since last year -- gigantic move, new difficult climate, unexpected breakup, worsening chronic pain, major surgery and recovery, death of a parent, heart attack of remaining parent, death of a pet, the thing is I am certain I am leaving things out -- I am having trouble forgiving myself for ( Read more... )