"I'm going down."
I really had nothing to say, I'm doing much better the last few days, just finally accepting everything and actually feeling good about life......tonight a good friend of mine and a girl I think is pretty awesome talked to me about a loss she experienced......and how she was starting to lose faith in what she believed in because of all the loss she has experienced. Now this girl has been through way more than most and she has always managed to get through it, although she does struggle with it sometimes. She is incredibly strong, I envy her ability to get through anything. Still, I do hope she continues to have strength and not let this one time kill her faith in everything she believes in, including fate and God. I think when things are at their lowest point, that's the best time to have faith, that's when you need it most. It's times like that when you can look at your life, and instead of denying how you really feel about someone or something, you can actually accept who you are. Faith can allow you to be who you are and not have to fake your emotions just to appear happy because if you have true faith, then you never actually have to worry about life because in true faith, no loss is without reason, no pain is without healing, and no prayer or down moment goes unanswered one way or another. I truly believe it's better to face the pain you have than ignore it.....I truly believe it's better to have faith than not to....in something. Because without faith, why live? Whenever I feel like it's time for me to just give up or that life is horrid, it's my faith that keeps me going. We all need a little passion and a little faith sometimes......that's what is making how I felt in the last journal entry able to go away. So, please, don't give up because of the bad things in life, have more faith because of them. you need it now more than ever.