AND.......it happened
ok so heres a lil update. i went back to the city on tuesday nite cuz dad was going back and i wanted to see my friends. all is well and im hoping to see ines on thursday and chill and see chris and them on wed. not the plan. i ended up hanging out with dad on wed, being miserable thinking of how much i miss my friends. it sucked cuz everyone was gone. tasha, glenn,mike, lee, no one was really here except chris, liv, mikey, which was def. a plus cuz if they were gone too i think i wud die. ok so thursday i was able to get my hair done! it looked great by the way, cant say it really does anymore tho lol. and after that i met up to see liv and chris. i met this girl named nicole who was really cool and basically i just enjoyed being there. i thought about how much i missed everybody and how much a part of me wants to stay in the city. my city! my birthplace. and oooh so many hott guys in hunter. owwww thats wut i really missed. the cute guys. none in rochester. ok maybe thats an exaggeration.. i mean 2. 2 cute guys in rochester. so then the gals took me for a tour and we went to the theatre so chris and this girl chanel cud audition for this play. mikey showed up and it wascool. wen he saw me i knew he wanted to kiss me, cuz wen i said "hey wassup" and gave him a hug, his face was directly facing mine like he was about to, and i had to move it away and give him a side kiss. ok weird.....i felt him looking at me from time to time that whole nite and i was thinking..."oh god" wut to do. liv and even this girl nicole who i just met was like "yeah he likes u" great uuugh. so then we went to wendy's and it was like 6 of us. bryan showed up and we're all chillen. then chris has to go home and we all go to woodlawn to take her home. me, liv, bryan, and mikey. so blah blah thats done. mikey tries to talk to me about how he feels. hes like i feel like im pouring my heart out to u, i really like u im attracted to u, all this stuff, and im like yeah ok i get that. ur cool too, and its not like ur not cute, cus u are.... (note to self.....like very lil, a lil tho, i guess cute in that way...idk) anyway i tell him 3 things. truth:
im in rochester
i got out of a heartbreaking relationship lol
i just dont wanna get involved right now
hes like i understand blah blah. so we go back downtown and we go to mikeys friends house, its his b-day, and theyre smoking and wutnot. and theres this huka on the table. i always wanted to try one of those. it has like this semi-sweet cigar taste to it. i coughed, i hate smoking im really not gonna do it anymore. i looked like the only looser but wutever. so i smoke a lil and im startin to feel it. live then smokes to and i go outside and mikey follows me and hes like jill lets talk. i say wutever im siting down and im leaning on his shoulder and im about to pass out. so i get really limp and my face is really close to his and hes talking and he says something about "could he kiss me" i say fine wutever. we kiss. he says ur such a good kisser but im afraid this is gonna be weird now. im afraid ive messed up out friendship. wutever. i start to get paranoid and i think everyones mad at me. ppl i didnt even kno im tellin olivia, look see theyre mad at me. it starts getting lat liv has to go, we stall, just fucked up, anyway we leave. we get to the train station and waiting for the train wut do u know, i cant find my cell phone. im freakin out, i have to go all the way back to the house and get it, its already like 12, liv was suppose to be home 2 hours ago, i felt like such an asshole. anyway we finally get on the train, i get home. im like haa, lemme call tai... hey wut can i say i have an excuse. i call him from my cell phone. it rings his voicemail comes on. i call again his phone is off. i was like oooh shit i bet he knew it was me. i call from my house phone 2wice which was a private # and it rings twice and he picks up...he doesnt say anything. so then lol i kno stalker. i call from my moms cell. he picks up. hes like hello im like hi, is this taalib willis, and hes like no this isnt taalib who is this. and im like this isnt taalib, o really. so he starts laughing and is like who is this. and i say think real hard, think of all the girls u kno. hes like idk i dont kno too many girls, so im like guess. hes like im not good with guessing blah blah. he figures it out. he says is this calhoun. and i say yes so hes laughing and hes like oooh hi, havent talked to u in a minute. how r things. to make a long story short he supposedly has a car, works in a hospital as some sort of medical assistant, still goes to hunter. and hes like wen r u leaving, y didnt u call me earlier, and i said well i didnt think u wanted to see me. hes like ofcourse i did ur madd cool. uuuuugh he needs to win an oscar. hes such a liar. hes like ooh dont leave, dont loose this number call me. i fed into his ego again. niice one jill real nice. hes like can i call this number back in like 20 min. its already sun. this was on fri. haaa i just laugh at it cuz i knew he wudnt. its fuckin halarious i dont get hurt about it anymore. i just laugh cuz hes so full of shit and i cant wait to finally let him go. ma jokes around and says give up the ghost bust she told me no, i kno wut its like to be there. and u wont really get over him till theres another person to fill that emotional void again. i get it. im in college, and my classes start tuesday. for right now i'll have fun lookin at guys, but more fun doin my own thing. its not that serious. oooh i kno certain ppl are gonna read this incl. prolly u liv. lol i think my babe is mad at me =( i hope not. were u that nite tho? i sensed it? sorry for it all. tty soon. good luck love u miss u
~CIAO~ Jilly
* ooh ppl who have nothing nice to say, do me a fav, and dont comment at all. im not a stubborn or dumb person. i kno when i fuck up and i dont need ppl to constantly remind and scold me*
thanx!
im in rochester
i got out of a heartbreaking relationship lol
i just dont wanna get involved right now
hes like i understand blah blah. so we go back downtown and we go to mikeys friends house, its his b-day, and theyre smoking and wutnot. and theres this huka on the table. i always wanted to try one of those. it has like this semi-sweet cigar taste to it. i coughed, i hate smoking im really not gonna do it anymore. i looked like the only looser but wutever. so i smoke a lil and im startin to feel it. live then smokes to and i go outside and mikey follows me and hes like jill lets talk. i say wutever im siting down and im leaning on his shoulder and im about to pass out. so i get really limp and my face is really close to his and hes talking and he says something about "could he kiss me" i say fine wutever. we kiss. he says ur such a good kisser but im afraid this is gonna be weird now. im afraid ive messed up out friendship. wutever. i start to get paranoid and i think everyones mad at me. ppl i didnt even kno im tellin olivia, look see theyre mad at me. it starts getting lat liv has to go, we stall, just fucked up, anyway we leave. we get to the train station and waiting for the train wut do u know, i cant find my cell phone. im freakin out, i have to go all the way back to the house and get it, its already like 12, liv was suppose to be home 2 hours ago, i felt like such an asshole. anyway we finally get on the train, i get home. im like haa, lemme call tai... hey wut can i say i have an excuse. i call him from my cell phone. it rings his voicemail comes on. i call again his phone is off. i was like oooh shit i bet he knew it was me. i call from my house phone 2wice which was a private # and it rings twice and he picks up...he doesnt say anything. so then lol i kno stalker. i call from my moms cell. he picks up. hes like hello im like hi, is this taalib willis, and hes like no this isnt taalib who is this. and im like this isnt taalib, o really. so he starts laughing and is like who is this. and i say think real hard, think of all the girls u kno. hes like idk i dont kno too many girls, so im like guess. hes like im not good with guessing blah blah. he figures it out. he says is this calhoun. and i say yes so hes laughing and hes like oooh hi, havent talked to u in a minute. how r things. to make a long story short he supposedly has a car, works in a hospital as some sort of medical assistant, still goes to hunter. and hes like wen r u leaving, y didnt u call me earlier, and i said well i didnt think u wanted to see me. hes like ofcourse i did ur madd cool. uuuuugh he needs to win an oscar. hes such a liar. hes like ooh dont leave, dont loose this number call me. i fed into his ego again. niice one jill real nice. hes like can i call this number back in like 20 min. its already sun. this was on fri. haaa i just laugh at it cuz i knew he wudnt. its fuckin halarious i dont get hurt about it anymore. i just laugh cuz hes so full of shit and i cant wait to finally let him go. ma jokes around and says give up the ghost bust she told me no, i kno wut its like to be there. and u wont really get over him till theres another person to fill that emotional void again. i get it. im in college, and my classes start tuesday. for right now i'll have fun lookin at guys, but more fun doin my own thing. its not that serious. oooh i kno certain ppl are gonna read this incl. prolly u liv. lol i think my babe is mad at me =( i hope not. were u that nite tho? i sensed it? sorry for it all. tty soon. good luck love u miss u
~CIAO~ Jilly
* ooh ppl who have nothing nice to say, do me a fav, and dont comment at all. im not a stubborn or dumb person. i kno when i fuck up and i dont need ppl to constantly remind and scold me*
thanx!