it happened, its over, im alone and bored

[jilibean]

so i finally moved into my apartment. and its exactly how i thought it wud be. im bored, by myself alone. ppl tell me theres so much to be grateful for, i have my own apartment, and iam thats true, but i cant appreciate the beauty for it. cuz one...its not really my own, my mom is basically owning it, i cant pay for it. and 2 i feel im not ready for it. its all the colleges fault. if i had a doorm, i wud meet ppl, live on campus, get to go to party's and go to the evening activities. my friends that are away now are already partying and having fun, waiting for registration. its cheaper and everythings more convienent.ive called my friends and no ones really around, everyone seems like they dont wanna be bothered. i dont kno i feel like im not gonna get that whole college experience. to a point iam but to another point im not. im glad i have my own computer though, cuz signing up for one and everything else is too much of a hassle. if only i didnt fuck around junior year and could go to ub in the beginning. imagine if i wuda got a scholorship too...hello car! awesome and since money is tight and i still dont have my license, i cant drive! which sux so much cuz in rochester u need a car wherever u go pretty much. well i gotta take the bus, and thats that. i got cable, which is a plus, and i gotta find a hairdresser which is not a plus! have u seen my hair lately and thats the end of that. lee already made friends, and tasha leaves sunday, so idk its just me and my own company for now. i shud go work out. i keep forgeting this place is mine, adn i dont have to ask permission to do anything or go anywhere and i keep forgetting that. i gotta remind myself...thats definatley a plus. so im gonna go find something to do now. i shud go workout. this is a great place for jogging.

~CiAo~
*Jilly*