It's Decided...
I'm a bit convinced that no one but my sweet friend Sage reads this journal :) However, I have decided to dedicate some time to my journal. I rarely have enough time for anything these days and I need a place where I can be my silly thoughtful self. I'm a fangirl at heart that doesn't quite fit in this city where I live. I love it, don't get me wrong. It's a safe place and it's more beautiful than people give it credit for...but some of its people and I just do not mesh. There isn't enough of what I love here, but that's okay for now. So, on that note, let's have an update shall we?
* I am currently still the advisor for my department. People like working me to the bone which I think I did a better job of last semester. It's taken me awhile to get back into the swing of things. I guess I just feel a bit overworked. I love my job and my internship and my class this semester (I spend more time in meetings than I do in class sadly), but I get that need for some encouragement to motivate myself. But in reality? Any motivation I need is gonna have to come from me. And that's just fine.
* My office feels a bit more like home now. There's an SFX calendar (free with magazine, yay!), some post cards on my bulletin board (Marliyn, Janis, Frida and Edie....) and they finally gave me a "new" monitor (secretary's older one that was still newer than my old one). I finally felt that it was okay to be at home here. It was pretty touch and go for awhile because of that one statistics class. But alas, I worked my butt off and passed the course. It was horrible. You don't know how much something means to you until it's threatened to be taken away.
* Erick and I have now been together for 6 years (and 1 month, but who's counting? lol) and it's going better than ever. I'm convinced that we're two of some kind lol. We're very different but so alike at the same time. I love the best of contradictions.
* I still don't have many friends. I have one really good friend in the department and another who is a secretary (not the same as above...TRUST ME), but that's fine for now. I'm settled on the idea that most of my peers here are after one thing and that's their own well being. There is so much backstabbing and criticism among us that I'm unsure of most of their need to help people. But maybe I just assumed that's why they were in the program to begin with. I don't know. I've learned that I shouldn't assume...for better or worse. Most of the cool people I've met have been online and therefore live very far away from me. I have made one new Facebook/online friend. Her name is Jo and she is a fellow Doctor Who addict. She read my fanfiction and messaged me and that's how it began :) in the best of ways.
* I am still madly obsessed with Doctor Who and I am so glad for it. It has really opened up a whole new way of thinking about stories for me. Also, it started my newly found Brit obsession lol. Still, even when I was a teenager, I don't remember loving anything as much as I love that show and it's characters. I'm so sad that David Tennant has moved on because he was just a fantastic Doctor. I'm looking forward to Matt Smith, but I'm praying that there is no love interest. It should be purely about adventure and fun and danger because involving the love aspect...it's just too much. Too much, as in, I got so involved with my favorite pairing (Doctor and Rose) that anyone else after her would just be pure fanatical pain lol.
* I have written so many pieces of fan fiction. I love it. But I only write Doctor Who fiction. I have yet to meet something else that has captivated me so much to motivate me to borrow the characters and finish off the stories or add to them. I think that's what makes fiction about Doctor Who so appealing...there is so much you can add to it because you don't see everything in the stories. I haven't updated some stories because of my school work and work work, but I hope to do something about that soon. I'm also considering posting some of it on here. I'm not sure.
* I haven't drawn in a very long time. I miss it terribly, but I haven't felt creative. I started a new drawing this past Tuesday when I was out sick from my internship, but it remains unfinished. I haven't felt the motivation. I hope it finds me soon.
That's quite a bit for my first day back lol. But I mean what I said, I want to try and make this a regular thing because even if no one is reading it...you know what? I read it, and that's enough :)
Allons-y!
* I am currently still the advisor for my department. People like working me to the bone which I think I did a better job of last semester. It's taken me awhile to get back into the swing of things. I guess I just feel a bit overworked. I love my job and my internship and my class this semester (I spend more time in meetings than I do in class sadly), but I get that need for some encouragement to motivate myself. But in reality? Any motivation I need is gonna have to come from me. And that's just fine.
* My office feels a bit more like home now. There's an SFX calendar (free with magazine, yay!), some post cards on my bulletin board (Marliyn, Janis, Frida and Edie....) and they finally gave me a "new" monitor (secretary's older one that was still newer than my old one). I finally felt that it was okay to be at home here. It was pretty touch and go for awhile because of that one statistics class. But alas, I worked my butt off and passed the course. It was horrible. You don't know how much something means to you until it's threatened to be taken away.
* Erick and I have now been together for 6 years (and 1 month, but who's counting? lol) and it's going better than ever. I'm convinced that we're two of some kind lol. We're very different but so alike at the same time. I love the best of contradictions.
* I still don't have many friends. I have one really good friend in the department and another who is a secretary (not the same as above...TRUST ME), but that's fine for now. I'm settled on the idea that most of my peers here are after one thing and that's their own well being. There is so much backstabbing and criticism among us that I'm unsure of most of their need to help people. But maybe I just assumed that's why they were in the program to begin with. I don't know. I've learned that I shouldn't assume...for better or worse. Most of the cool people I've met have been online and therefore live very far away from me. I have made one new Facebook/online friend. Her name is Jo and she is a fellow Doctor Who addict. She read my fanfiction and messaged me and that's how it began :) in the best of ways.
* I am still madly obsessed with Doctor Who and I am so glad for it. It has really opened up a whole new way of thinking about stories for me. Also, it started my newly found Brit obsession lol. Still, even when I was a teenager, I don't remember loving anything as much as I love that show and it's characters. I'm so sad that David Tennant has moved on because he was just a fantastic Doctor. I'm looking forward to Matt Smith, but I'm praying that there is no love interest. It should be purely about adventure and fun and danger because involving the love aspect...it's just too much. Too much, as in, I got so involved with my favorite pairing (Doctor and Rose) that anyone else after her would just be pure fanatical pain lol.
* I have written so many pieces of fan fiction. I love it. But I only write Doctor Who fiction. I have yet to meet something else that has captivated me so much to motivate me to borrow the characters and finish off the stories or add to them. I think that's what makes fiction about Doctor Who so appealing...there is so much you can add to it because you don't see everything in the stories. I haven't updated some stories because of my school work and work work, but I hope to do something about that soon. I'm also considering posting some of it on here. I'm not sure.
* I haven't drawn in a very long time. I miss it terribly, but I haven't felt creative. I started a new drawing this past Tuesday when I was out sick from my internship, but it remains unfinished. I haven't felt the motivation. I hope it finds me soon.
That's quite a bit for my first day back lol. But I mean what I said, I want to try and make this a regular thing because even if no one is reading it...you know what? I read it, and that's enough :)
Allons-y!