to all the drama queens who insist on airing their private business on livejournal....

[jigglypuff9]

ok so here it is. first of all, i think you all are being pretty immature. and you know who you are, and i will name you because i am not afraid to say things to people's faces. im taking about the mess between chrissy, christyal, patrick, and gina (and i guess sean since theres alot of hate there). first of all, im really worried about all of you

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No. 2

[hyphywifey]

"and christyal: if you miss sean so much and his behavior has hurt you so much, why dont you try going to him calmly and talking to him" If i miss sean so much?! Now, please, tell me WHERE did you get that one?! I may have some pent up anger at him, but i sure as hell DO NOT miss him. Do you know what its like having a fake boyfriend, a fag, a son, and a bestfriend all rolled into one?! I have two words for you: High Maintenance. And i can only deal with one high maintenance bitch and that is me. I do not want to make things better with sean! What do i have to do to get it through to you people! I AM CONTENT on not having as many friends as i once used to if they are going to shit all over me. I don't need them! I feel like i am better off without him! If it works for me, then you all have nothing to say. If this is how i want things, then this is how things are going to be. And i really think its funny how you and yvette make assumptions like you have been there since the start. You have no idea. You think that this whole thing with chrissy is stemming from the sean thing? ( Well maybe for her because she has found an ally in hating me.) But it is not about him! It is about chrissy and me. If you haven't put it together, we don't really like each other. And its been this way for at least 6 or 7 years. Ask around, this is nothing new.

Which brings me to the most offensive thing in your post: "and patrick, im really surprised at you, because you create this image of yourself as being really understanding, of having your own definite opinion, but youve really just taken christyals side in all of this and i dont think thats fair either. i know that you both have been seriously hurt by seans behavior, but i dont think its fair to just go along with everything." You sound just like chrissy circa summer 2006 in the starbucks in el sobrante, ca. She doesn't get it either. You must be a FUCKING MORON to not see or understand that both chrissy and sean have pissed off patrick too. And often times for completely different reasons than the ones i have. Unlike what most of you seem to think, Patrick does have a mind of his own and doens't just spend him time following me around like a puppy. We both have our reasons, some the same, some different. I am NOT keeping patrick from having good relationships with sean and chrissy! They fucked that one up all on their own.

In the end, everyone keeps whining about how patrick and i were the "glue that held our friends together" that the "group was centered around us," etc. Well kids, i guess its time to move into "grown-up land" because you are going to be without us to lead the way. If you want to be friends with each other, then be friends. If you don't, then don't. If you want to hang out with each other, then hang out. Don't let me stop you. The truth is that its time for me to settle down and not be the "center of attention" anymore. You say patrick and i have withdrawn ourselves from everyone, well talk to those who i still see on a very regular basis; Stacey, Gina, Christian, and Kenny. They some how still seem to break down the walls of alienation, why can't you? From the sounds of things, it seems most of you don't like me and the way i run shop. That is fine, we all can't get along all the time. But if you don't like me, then why are you all so obsessed with me "returning " to the circle. If you don't like me, then stop bothering me. I don't need all of you telling me how to live my life. Thanks for your concern, but i can make my own decisions. So think long and hard and like my nigga jay-z says, "either love me or leave me alone."

If want to learn the truth or at least my truthful side, i'll be glad to let you in. But i have a feeling that many people don't trust me or my word and think i'm the one lying. You can believe this if you want, but don't turn around and act like my friend if you think i'm lying to you. My father taught me that all you have is your word and without it you are shit. So if i'm shit, please leave me alone and stop talking about me and lying about me and spreading my business (true or false). Just pretend like i didn't exist.

Thank you,
Christyal

Re: No. 2

[jigglypuff9]

christyal:

im really sorry that i came off as offensive. i didnt mean to be, and youre right, its because i made assumptions. i just got on this morning, and there was so much lj drama, and it just got to me, and im sorry. i know it may appear to you that im on a opposite side than you, but im really just on my own side, and wish that alot of the fighting could just stop, although i realize that sometimes that is impossible when too much has gone down in the past. and its not that i necessarily believe any of the rumors or stories i hear going round, its more that i keep hearing them, so it either means someone is lying, or theyre true, and it just upsets me to know that their is so much going on behind everyones backs (including yours). and like i said before, if you need to talk, i will listen to you. but i dont want to use lj, and im actually sorry i made this post in the first place, because i dont want to start shit with you, because im not mad at you or anything, and i realize you have enough people who have been starting shit with you lately. so im sorry if i made you angry, i realize that many of the things i said i dont really have a place to say, because im not one of your closest friends, and i mainly said them because i was annoyed. so i apologize. i hope you have a good time now that you are done with classes.

Holly

Re: No. 2

[hyphywifey]

I really appreciate that Holly. I really didn't want to start anything either, i just don't know what to do anymore. I really feel like we all need to talk about this, live in the flesh and not using lj as a confrontation shield. So yes, i do want to talk to you. I know it must suck to be in the middle of all this bullshit and i am truly sorry. Hopefully we can get this all resolved whether the outcome it good or bad and just be done with it.

thanks again,
Christyal