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Hello lately I just don't know what's wrong with me. I am really confused bc one of my best friends and I are not getting along to well. It's really hard, but I act like it doesn't bother me so people won't think it does. The truth is it bothers me so much bc sometimes I don't know what's going on with her. (if ure reading this girl i want to fix things)There are only two and a half days left and I am not happy for some strange reason about it. I normally would be like jumping for joy. Maybe it's bc I won't see a lot of people for three months. This friend thing is really getting me down and I am using a B on a choir exam as my excuse. The B didn't make me happy or anything tho it made me feel worse. I am just thinking do i know anything at all about music??? How on earth can you miss 8 questions on subject you love? Sometimes I just wonder what it would be like if I had different friends or did different things. Sometimes I wish I could have made some different choices, but I guess you learn from life. You can't have the perfect life you dream of. Even tho I wish I could.My friends are really all that's bugging me.They bring me down sometimes. Some of them make me so unhappy,but I am happy for Harley tho I think he is just what I need. I just can't understand what it is with my friends. Maybe I did something I don't know I did, maybe they just are tired of me, or maybe they are jealous I don't really know.I have nothinng for them to be jealous of if that's it. I am just like them,but somethings have just come my way first.It doesn't mean it's not gonna happen to them. Some people say I am perfect and that makes me so mad bc I am not perfect. You can ask anyone they probably won't say I am. If they say I am then I guess something isn't clear to me. Maybe someone can clear it all up for me? I hope so. I know these journal things are so pointless, but I do it just so I don't have to tell everyone everything. If they want to know they can look here.What am I gonna do with myself? lol hmm who knows really. Oh and just to let you know I am not some physco with issues. I am just very confused.