"I want you so bad it's driving me mad"
Today is the day of me almost falling off of stuff. First my bed, then my chair in Kabuki, then my Platonic Soulmate's lap, then a couch. I don't even know.
I love my Kabuki class so much, but it's too damn structured for me. It's such a rigid form, and I don't know enough about it yet to make it my own, so I'm sticking very closely to a lot of rules that make sense in some ways but in others feel very unnatural. The professor talks about it with a kind of reverence, and I think that's because he very much likes a kind of theatre that is, well, theatrical, and while that's interesting to me and I see that it is worth something, I also love realness, and I have never felt so good in performance as when I was able to just talk, as a person, and forget the words were scripted. Ultra-stylized is hard for me to do. But I do love the dances we are learning. I feel like I'm awful at Hanna no Sode, because it's so slow and controlled, but the new one (I can't remember the title!) is quicker, with a clearer narrative and more literal movements, so it's easier to handle even though I have to be fast on my feet. Also, we get to imitate drunkenness. Gracefully. It's silly and awesome.
Placement auditions were yesterday. I got cut off (I knew the monologue was too long but couldn't figure out how to cut it so it would make sense, so I just sort of talked until they told me to stop) and it wasn't the best I've ever done with that monologue, but it felt fairly solid and natural and I managed to make the auditors laugh, which was exciting because they don't usually. We find out which classes we get a little after spring break, I guess. I want to know now. Especially because I was auditioning for the Acting Specialist program, and if I don't get in I have to wait for next spring . . .
I've lost my train of thought now. Oh well. Yay theater rambling?
Which reminds me. I'm trying to decide whether to audition for Elegies For Angels, Punks, and Raging Queens. It'd be a pretty low time commitment, which is good, but they mostly need singers, which is bad, but it's a show, which is good, and I don't know. We'll see.
. . . I still have more journals to write for Acting. I should have started earlier, but I had to wait until I was less stoned and more productive.
And omg, this song just reminded me of Across the Universe and that scene is so creepy. Also, following traditional musical format, that song is totally the dream ballet of the film.
I love my Kabuki class so much, but it's too damn structured for me. It's such a rigid form, and I don't know enough about it yet to make it my own, so I'm sticking very closely to a lot of rules that make sense in some ways but in others feel very unnatural. The professor talks about it with a kind of reverence, and I think that's because he very much likes a kind of theatre that is, well, theatrical, and while that's interesting to me and I see that it is worth something, I also love realness, and I have never felt so good in performance as when I was able to just talk, as a person, and forget the words were scripted. Ultra-stylized is hard for me to do. But I do love the dances we are learning. I feel like I'm awful at Hanna no Sode, because it's so slow and controlled, but the new one (I can't remember the title!) is quicker, with a clearer narrative and more literal movements, so it's easier to handle even though I have to be fast on my feet. Also, we get to imitate drunkenness. Gracefully. It's silly and awesome.
Placement auditions were yesterday. I got cut off (I knew the monologue was too long but couldn't figure out how to cut it so it would make sense, so I just sort of talked until they told me to stop) and it wasn't the best I've ever done with that monologue, but it felt fairly solid and natural and I managed to make the auditors laugh, which was exciting because they don't usually. We find out which classes we get a little after spring break, I guess. I want to know now. Especially because I was auditioning for the Acting Specialist program, and if I don't get in I have to wait for next spring . . .
I've lost my train of thought now. Oh well. Yay theater rambling?
Which reminds me. I'm trying to decide whether to audition for Elegies For Angels, Punks, and Raging Queens. It'd be a pretty low time commitment, which is good, but they mostly need singers, which is bad, but it's a show, which is good, and I don't know. We'll see.
. . . I still have more journals to write for Acting. I should have started earlier, but I had to wait until I was less stoned and more productive.
And omg, this song just reminded me of Across the Universe and that scene is so creepy. Also, following traditional musical format, that song is totally the dream ballet of the film.