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Called mama, spazzed out at her for a while-- as soon as she realized I was upset, she asked if I needed money. Am v. amused, and explained to her that while I am completely broke, I am not, in fact, in need of money, as I'm surprisingly good at avoiding all situations that call for it (we call this being antisocial.) Anyway, explained the situation, kind of forgot how to breathe there for a while (sometimes I am truly disturbed by how well I fit the overemotional actor stereotype) and had sympathetic noises made at me. Then I realized papa had left several messages on my voice mail over the past couple of days and called him-- spazzed out at him, too, and was given the "Don't decide anything too quickly" talk. I think he's still hoping I'll change my mind and become a teacher or something. XD
But anyway, I'm calmer now (although I have the headache to end all headaches) and I work tomorrow, and I'm going to get some things sorted out this weekend and then hopefully talk to an advisor or something so I can at least feel like I have a plan. So. I think we're getting over the "OMG EVERYTHING SUCKS" phase fairly quickly this time, and moving right along to the "augh, this sucks, now how do I fix it?" which is good.
Papa also seems to dislike the idea of my interning. :/ I understand why, because it's a huge time commitment, but I want to feel at least somewhat productive this semester, so I don't like giving up on it. Realistically, though, he's right. I should volunteer for them as much as I can, but the internship would be too much, without enough benefit to make sense.
But anyway, I'm calmer now (although I have the headache to end all headaches) and I work tomorrow, and I'm going to get some things sorted out this weekend and then hopefully talk to an advisor or something so I can at least feel like I have a plan. So. I think we're getting over the "OMG EVERYTHING SUCKS" phase fairly quickly this time, and moving right along to the "augh, this sucks, now how do I fix it?" which is good.
Papa also seems to dislike the idea of my interning. :/ I understand why, because it's a huge time commitment, but I want to feel at least somewhat productive this semester, so I don't like giving up on it. Realistically, though, he's right. I should volunteer for them as much as I can, but the internship would be too much, without enough benefit to make sense.