creepy thought...
ok so at night when I go out onto the porch I hear that overwhelming loud sound of crickets we are all so familiar with... it occured to me last night that it must take an awful lot of crickets to make all that noise..and the image of that many crickets all aroudn my house completely creeped me out.
anyway, I am now ahead for doorknocking and makiggn contacts for the next few weeks of training and I am studying for my insurance exam. matthew has been really fussy from 3am on the past week or so .. the problem is he sleeps from 8pm to 1 or so and then only goes back to bed for a coupel of hours then he wants to stay up for a while which is killign us since we dont go to bed till after 10 to start with. I tried keeping him awake with us while we hang out in the rec room at night but it is impossible. when he decides he is goign to sleep nothing can stop him. I event ried to wake himup after two hours around 10pm last night, I stripped him down washed him with a clothe and changed his diaper and clothes and he didnt even open an eye. little devil. kidding he is an angel but i am suffering from sleep deprivation. and to top it off last night wer went to my parents for a dinner party to meet uncle dan's new girlfriend and spend time with uncle richard and kathy ...and also to let ash tire herself in the pool, and right before we left, ashleigh wiped out on the cement running around the pool area. she scraped up her wrist and elbow really bad and woke up three times last ngith crying because she hit it wrong and it hurt her. george was great though he went in and dealt with her and made surei was all set with matthew. wow I gues sit really does depend on the day i post how I feel,because if i had signed on to livejournal this weekend i woudl not have been complimenting george on his parentign or anythign else. but now i am pleased with his participation...scary.
we still need to deal with our expectations of each other. it has been six years and we are both still agrivated and dissapointed because the other is or isnt doign certain things. we really need to just get over it i know. but it goes both ways. he gets really pissed off that I dont do the dishes right away, or scrub the counters after every meal and i leave laundrey piled up on occassion. well sorry, I have never been into cleanign and never will be if I actually had 10 minutes to myself i woudl not want to waste them cleaning but as it is I dont even have the 10 minutes i would need to not clean so get off my back already. and he is never going to be expressive or sensitive or understanding or affectionate ..well he can be affectionate but its wshen he feels liek it not necessarily when i need it.. but that goes back to sensitive i guess. so i suggested making lists but he ha sno inyterest in that but i gues sit is fine for right now till the next time he blows up at me and we end up saying hurtful things to each other. wonder when we will outgrow it?
anyway, I am now ahead for doorknocking and makiggn contacts for the next few weeks of training and I am studying for my insurance exam. matthew has been really fussy from 3am on the past week or so .. the problem is he sleeps from 8pm to 1 or so and then only goes back to bed for a coupel of hours then he wants to stay up for a while which is killign us since we dont go to bed till after 10 to start with. I tried keeping him awake with us while we hang out in the rec room at night but it is impossible. when he decides he is goign to sleep nothing can stop him. I event ried to wake himup after two hours around 10pm last night, I stripped him down washed him with a clothe and changed his diaper and clothes and he didnt even open an eye. little devil. kidding he is an angel but i am suffering from sleep deprivation. and to top it off last night wer went to my parents for a dinner party to meet uncle dan's new girlfriend and spend time with uncle richard and kathy ...and also to let ash tire herself in the pool, and right before we left, ashleigh wiped out on the cement running around the pool area. she scraped up her wrist and elbow really bad and woke up three times last ngith crying because she hit it wrong and it hurt her. george was great though he went in and dealt with her and made surei was all set with matthew. wow I gues sit really does depend on the day i post how I feel,because if i had signed on to livejournal this weekend i woudl not have been complimenting george on his parentign or anythign else. but now i am pleased with his participation...scary.
we still need to deal with our expectations of each other. it has been six years and we are both still agrivated and dissapointed because the other is or isnt doign certain things. we really need to just get over it i know. but it goes both ways. he gets really pissed off that I dont do the dishes right away, or scrub the counters after every meal and i leave laundrey piled up on occassion. well sorry, I have never been into cleanign and never will be if I actually had 10 minutes to myself i woudl not want to waste them cleaning but as it is I dont even have the 10 minutes i would need to not clean so get off my back already. and he is never going to be expressive or sensitive or understanding or affectionate ..well he can be affectionate but its wshen he feels liek it not necessarily when i need it.. but that goes back to sensitive i guess. so i suggested making lists but he ha sno inyterest in that but i gues sit is fine for right now till the next time he blows up at me and we end up saying hurtful things to each other. wonder when we will outgrow it?