Boom Pains
AGI 2021? 12,000
AGI 2022? 47,500
Why the fourfold increase in income? Tue snapped. After having a hillbilly yell at him (or actually, more about him) for half an hour with an eclectic mix of the true, false, and the statements so gray that Tue has no opinion on their true/false proposition, he snapped.
It wasn't because the woman in question was particularly cruel, but because Tue was particularly bored. I've easily had a dozen white female roommates, romantic partners and sexual partners engage in that behavior. Overstating and exaggerating my faults, not to solve a problem, but to successfully make me look bad.
So why deal? The setup in Warrensburg, roughly 50 miles outside of Kansas City, was the first time where I did not live with anyone outside my race or gender in seven years. So no one with a sense of entitlement to overspend (when I am paying) or be emotionally abusive (when I am not).
Tue cooked. He worked 23 days in a row June 2022. He worked two full time jobs in September 2022, although less than willingly. He would have worked more, but eventually Tue had to "shit, shower, and shave", so it was agreed for him to have Fridays off. Tue has worked every single Federal holiday in 14 months (Feb 2022-April 2023), to include Memorial and Labor Days, Xmas, both day and eve, New Years, both day and eve, Independence Day, and any reason you can think of to close a bank during the workweek.
Between Diana leaving in Feb 2014 and the hillbilly yelling at him in Oct 2021, seven years passed. Remember, he's learning slowly because it is much easier for people to blame him than teach him. Self reflection is hard. Punishing Tue is much easier. Tue, having been surrounded by those with mental illness for decades, has to consciously think: "He looks happy, what does he do? His wife does? What do they do? What do they NOT do?" It's a process that takes YEARS.
And the Warrensburg apt was the perfect lab. No one to criticize. Which made him feel less depressed, and more confident. Now it's a matter of gamification. Tue is using Self to improve his credit, started a new job to get more hours, and to be off his feet more. Tue has been off his cane most days since the new job. Tue is so conscious about his money that it shows on his USAA app how much money he has both in his bank account and retirement fund, both on the tablet and phone. He needs an hourly update to motivate him to take an edible at home, rather than get drunk at the bar. To volunteer for overtime.
It's all about the rewards. I may put six months of effort into a woman, and she has a worse opinion of me than the day I started. While in a job, I can be promoted. Tue, out of self preservation, will go to whomever is holding the carrot. This takes dating off the table. I declared such when I told my business partner "I would rather have a woman with good weed than a bad body."
Oh? Business partner? I gave her five stacks to start a car flipping business. And I've gotten back at least seven. After not seeing her since I was a teenager, we reconnected and did business. With her being a black lesbian, our relationship is surprisingly fruitful. Hey, Tue needs money. The problems in Virginia, Missouri, Oregon and Washington he could have straight up bought his way out of. Alaska he had to eat. Teach Tue to love money for long enough, and he did.
Tue is staring down the prospect of spending the rest of his life alone. He's got to fill the time somehow. So far, good start. He's reconnecting with friends and family, and is no longer upset by anything. He still gets surprises, like how the body shape of a particular student reminds him of Snowflake, and he realizes he's more receptive to her well-being. Or how he'll still talk to Anna, by going to the nearest photo of her and talking to it. Think of it like a telephone.
Tue is staring down the problem of being alone for the next forty years. No intimacy in bed, no telling of feelings. He looks at it like a condition to be managed. Diabetics need to take insulin, I need an edible and to talk to my dead ex for human connection. It is what it is. While I'm on this side of the veil, manage the best I can.
AGI 2022? 47,500
Why the fourfold increase in income? Tue snapped. After having a hillbilly yell at him (or actually, more about him) for half an hour with an eclectic mix of the true, false, and the statements so gray that Tue has no opinion on their true/false proposition, he snapped.
It wasn't because the woman in question was particularly cruel, but because Tue was particularly bored. I've easily had a dozen white female roommates, romantic partners and sexual partners engage in that behavior. Overstating and exaggerating my faults, not to solve a problem, but to successfully make me look bad.
So why deal? The setup in Warrensburg, roughly 50 miles outside of Kansas City, was the first time where I did not live with anyone outside my race or gender in seven years. So no one with a sense of entitlement to overspend (when I am paying) or be emotionally abusive (when I am not).
Tue cooked. He worked 23 days in a row June 2022. He worked two full time jobs in September 2022, although less than willingly. He would have worked more, but eventually Tue had to "shit, shower, and shave", so it was agreed for him to have Fridays off. Tue has worked every single Federal holiday in 14 months (Feb 2022-April 2023), to include Memorial and Labor Days, Xmas, both day and eve, New Years, both day and eve, Independence Day, and any reason you can think of to close a bank during the workweek.
Between Diana leaving in Feb 2014 and the hillbilly yelling at him in Oct 2021, seven years passed. Remember, he's learning slowly because it is much easier for people to blame him than teach him. Self reflection is hard. Punishing Tue is much easier. Tue, having been surrounded by those with mental illness for decades, has to consciously think: "He looks happy, what does he do? His wife does? What do they do? What do they NOT do?" It's a process that takes YEARS.
And the Warrensburg apt was the perfect lab. No one to criticize. Which made him feel less depressed, and more confident. Now it's a matter of gamification. Tue is using Self to improve his credit, started a new job to get more hours, and to be off his feet more. Tue has been off his cane most days since the new job. Tue is so conscious about his money that it shows on his USAA app how much money he has both in his bank account and retirement fund, both on the tablet and phone. He needs an hourly update to motivate him to take an edible at home, rather than get drunk at the bar. To volunteer for overtime.
It's all about the rewards. I may put six months of effort into a woman, and she has a worse opinion of me than the day I started. While in a job, I can be promoted. Tue, out of self preservation, will go to whomever is holding the carrot. This takes dating off the table. I declared such when I told my business partner "I would rather have a woman with good weed than a bad body."
Oh? Business partner? I gave her five stacks to start a car flipping business. And I've gotten back at least seven. After not seeing her since I was a teenager, we reconnected and did business. With her being a black lesbian, our relationship is surprisingly fruitful. Hey, Tue needs money. The problems in Virginia, Missouri, Oregon and Washington he could have straight up bought his way out of. Alaska he had to eat. Teach Tue to love money for long enough, and he did.
Tue is staring down the prospect of spending the rest of his life alone. He's got to fill the time somehow. So far, good start. He's reconnecting with friends and family, and is no longer upset by anything. He still gets surprises, like how the body shape of a particular student reminds him of Snowflake, and he realizes he's more receptive to her well-being. Or how he'll still talk to Anna, by going to the nearest photo of her and talking to it. Think of it like a telephone.
Tue is staring down the problem of being alone for the next forty years. No intimacy in bed, no telling of feelings. He looks at it like a condition to be managed. Diabetics need to take insulin, I need an edible and to talk to my dead ex for human connection. It is what it is. While I'm on this side of the veil, manage the best I can.