Lessons in Futility
Before I talk about what's been going, I should explain the meaning behind the title of this post. There's more than one actually, the first being that I think there are only two people left who are reading this, one of whom will be getting a more detailed acount of things later on tonight. I'm leaving this a public access on the off chance that one or two more people will actually read it. At the end of last year two close friends responded to my cry of rage, now I doubt either of them are checking this anymore.
The second reason is that amongst the many emails I plan to write tonight, one is to someone who has dismissed me every time I have tried to reach out to her. I don't really expect anything to be different this time, but I've been thinking about doing this for awhile now and tonight, I just really don't care how she responds.
There are other reasons for the title, but the rest have to do with some of the things that happened this weekend. This weekend has been at times great, at times disappointing, and in the end left me feeling more empty than I can remember feeling. Overall bittersweet, the experience did reveal that a problem that I've been having is more involved that I hoped and confirmed many of my fears. It is a problem I don't really feel like talking about here and one that very few people know about. Unfortunately, although my analysis of the problem is more complete, I am no closer to figuring out how to solve the damn thing.
Alright, I can't think of anything else to say.
Catch you all later.
The second reason is that amongst the many emails I plan to write tonight, one is to someone who has dismissed me every time I have tried to reach out to her. I don't really expect anything to be different this time, but I've been thinking about doing this for awhile now and tonight, I just really don't care how she responds.
There are other reasons for the title, but the rest have to do with some of the things that happened this weekend. This weekend has been at times great, at times disappointing, and in the end left me feeling more empty than I can remember feeling. Overall bittersweet, the experience did reveal that a problem that I've been having is more involved that I hoped and confirmed many of my fears. It is a problem I don't really feel like talking about here and one that very few people know about. Unfortunately, although my analysis of the problem is more complete, I am no closer to figuring out how to solve the damn thing.
Alright, I can't think of anything else to say.
Catch you all later.