To those who presume to underestimate me
Lately, I find myself unable to rid myself of the ghost of who I once was. To those of you who insist on seeing me as I was, you have no idea who I am now and probably had no idea of who I was even then. I will not pretend to be shackled to the myopic view that you all have of me. I admit that I let you believe that there were things I couldn't do and I let certain limitations I thought I had get in the way. I have no intentions of doing that anymore.
To those think that because I haven't done something that I can't or won't. If I have to prove you wrong alongside with all the others so be it. It's long past time that I start showing people what it is I can truly do. If you are foolish enough to think I am not serious or this is all a joke to me, you will find you are sadly mistaken. There is very little these days that I do half assed, if I'm going to do it, it will be given everything I have and more.
The person who I was is dead; mourn him if you wish, but I do not. The changes I'm making now are ones I should have made fifteen years ago. I allowed my weaknesses to get the better of me and looking back that makes me sick. Remember that every time you seek to dig up the past. I know I am not perfect and that I have a long way to go before I get to where I want to be. The one thing I can guarantee you, though, is that tomorrow I will be better and the day after that, etc. If you have suggestions on how I can move farther along any given path or task, please let me know. I do appreciate the advice, especially if you happen to know more about something than I do. All other comments, insults, and attempts to once again marry me to my past, I suggest you keep to yourselves.
If you think I care about falls or cuts, or think that I feel as if in any way I lost today, again you are mistaken. I have survived a lot worse in my time. That which does not kill me makes me infinitely stronger. Hurt me today and I will come back at you twice as hard tomorrow, I'm tired of holding back.
You all want a paradigm shift, I'll give you a fucking paradigm shift!
To those think that because I haven't done something that I can't or won't. If I have to prove you wrong alongside with all the others so be it. It's long past time that I start showing people what it is I can truly do. If you are foolish enough to think I am not serious or this is all a joke to me, you will find you are sadly mistaken. There is very little these days that I do half assed, if I'm going to do it, it will be given everything I have and more.
The person who I was is dead; mourn him if you wish, but I do not. The changes I'm making now are ones I should have made fifteen years ago. I allowed my weaknesses to get the better of me and looking back that makes me sick. Remember that every time you seek to dig up the past. I know I am not perfect and that I have a long way to go before I get to where I want to be. The one thing I can guarantee you, though, is that tomorrow I will be better and the day after that, etc. If you have suggestions on how I can move farther along any given path or task, please let me know. I do appreciate the advice, especially if you happen to know more about something than I do. All other comments, insults, and attempts to once again marry me to my past, I suggest you keep to yourselves.
If you think I care about falls or cuts, or think that I feel as if in any way I lost today, again you are mistaken. I have survived a lot worse in my time. That which does not kill me makes me infinitely stronger. Hurt me today and I will come back at you twice as hard tomorrow, I'm tired of holding back.
You all want a paradigm shift, I'll give you a fucking paradigm shift!