The only one who’s got enough of me to break my heart...
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determined ]
Happy New Year to all!
I’m not going to set any solid resolutions this year since I tend to not follow through with them. I will however make a goal for myself..
My goal starting this year is to find my happiness again. I’d be lying if I said that I’ve been happy or have been happy with myself overall for the past few years. I admit it now. I’m not happy. I guess you could say I made my bed and laid on it a long time ago because for the longest time I was dependent on the feelings I had for a person to make me happy. You know something is wrong when you realize that you love someone so much you begin to lose yourself to the point where you don’t know who you are anymore. You begin to not like what stares back at you when you look in the mirror. You feel like it’s taking over your whole life and slowly suffocating you. I realize now that the love I was feeling for one person was suffocating me..was it even healthy anymore? Was it even healthy to begin with? It was spiraling me out of control and I didn’t like it one bit. When you realize that you lost control..maybe not completely but getting there...you need to say to yourself, “Stop right now.” So that’s what I’m doing..God only knows it’s time for me to wake up and take control of my life. No more depending on thoughts of a man to give me happiness or hope. I’m going to find my happiness again and this time it won’t be because of someone else. And for the record? I’m not going to look back.
determined ]
Happy New Year to all!
I’m not going to set any solid resolutions this year since I tend to not follow through with them. I will however make a goal for myself..
My goal starting this year is to find my happiness again. I’d be lying if I said that I’ve been happy or have been happy with myself overall for the past few years. I admit it now. I’m not happy. I guess you could say I made my bed and laid on it a long time ago because for the longest time I was dependent on the feelings I had for a person to make me happy. You know something is wrong when you realize that you love someone so much you begin to lose yourself to the point where you don’t know who you are anymore. You begin to not like what stares back at you when you look in the mirror. You feel like it’s taking over your whole life and slowly suffocating you. I realize now that the love I was feeling for one person was suffocating me..was it even healthy anymore? Was it even healthy to begin with? It was spiraling me out of control and I didn’t like it one bit. When you realize that you lost control..maybe not completely but getting there...you need to say to yourself, “Stop right now.” So that’s what I’m doing..God only knows it’s time for me to wake up and take control of my life. No more depending on thoughts of a man to give me happiness or hope. I’m going to find my happiness again and this time it won’t be because of someone else. And for the record? I’m not going to look back.