i feel just like a local god when i'm with the boy, and i do what i want.
i've decided i'm actaully crazy, but i'm not dumb enough to not realize i'm crazy enough to not be crazy.
you walk through a courtyard by yourself differently than if there were people there.
thats how i see me. i act differently around everyone and lies ensuse, not just verbal, but physical too. Being honest feels good to me cause i never am otherwise. i have to initiate honesty and its rare that i'll do it otherwise. but you know what, i'm honest right now. but you know what else, i realize that by the time people start responding to all my honesty, i will not be in the same sate of mind as i am now, and that i 'll probably not be honest. sucky.
therefore someone should be online rigth now and talk to me. cause damn, i've realized i'm lonely. and not emo lonely, just like, christe almighty i can see why companionship is so awsome.
i gotta pee.
i went from sitting upright to an extreamly akward upside down position. head on the ground and that shite.
whatchoo think aboyut using honesty as a weapon? take "closer" for exampel "i lied, i did fuck alice." ha.
honesty man, morality and ethics. Ethics is socities morality, moralities is tqhe individuals ...morality. and honesty is how the individual shows their morals in the ethical world. So, honest people say their morals and stand by them and waver not allowing others with their morals to come together. clashing and fighting or fitting like your left hand fingers and your right hand fingers fit as you've always fit them together for a long time.
i can't say anything but my opinions about other peopls morality, but i can say my own morality and how i think i interact with the moralities of others and the ethics of the time. i think i'm very sensitive to others, so much so that i will lie my ass off through my teeth to try and follow their morals.
bleg, i'm not finishing that above paragraph so wordy like.
i'm just saying i lie a lot. and you guys know that. i'm trying to be honester. but i'm also scared that my honest will drive people away, because i'm pretty much utterly convinced in my mind that no one but myself will ever be able to live with my honest true self. but, i think thats wrong and that there are some people who will be able to live with myself.
mind reading. that would be cool.
i'm. going to take a break from this post, i'm sleepy, i actually might not even be alble to finish it tonight, i might fall asleep. but i'm just writing this little part so that readers can tell i wrote this the same night i went on a curhazy social website rampage saying many of my truthful thoughts about people on their websites.
kay.
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and 3 movie trailers later, i'm thinking about other stuff. like the fact that John Murphy's "In a heartbeat" song is a peice of fantastic work that has now become insanle huge. Little selfish plug for myself here.... i downloaded that song.... many years ago cause i knew it was fantastic. ohkay, moving on. (John Murphy was the musical director of 28 Days later, In a heartbeat is that song you've all heard now that goes do do doo doo dooo dooo doo doo!)
lol, a warlock to all weapons not treated with the menstrual blood of a virgin? hahahahhaha
kay, i'm just going to post this now and wait for all the crazy comments tomorrow and have nothing not up and posted cuase its about 4;04 in the morning and i'm tired and dirty, but i'm not showering.
everything below the dashed line was written on the same day, just about 10 minutes later.
kay night guys and gals
you walk through a courtyard by yourself differently than if there were people there.
thats how i see me. i act differently around everyone and lies ensuse, not just verbal, but physical too. Being honest feels good to me cause i never am otherwise. i have to initiate honesty and its rare that i'll do it otherwise. but you know what, i'm honest right now. but you know what else, i realize that by the time people start responding to all my honesty, i will not be in the same sate of mind as i am now, and that i 'll probably not be honest. sucky.
therefore someone should be online rigth now and talk to me. cause damn, i've realized i'm lonely. and not emo lonely, just like, christe almighty i can see why companionship is so awsome.
i gotta pee.
i went from sitting upright to an extreamly akward upside down position. head on the ground and that shite.
whatchoo think aboyut using honesty as a weapon? take "closer" for exampel "i lied, i did fuck alice." ha.
honesty man, morality and ethics. Ethics is socities morality, moralities is tqhe individuals ...morality. and honesty is how the individual shows their morals in the ethical world. So, honest people say their morals and stand by them and waver not allowing others with their morals to come together. clashing and fighting or fitting like your left hand fingers and your right hand fingers fit as you've always fit them together for a long time.
i can't say anything but my opinions about other peopls morality, but i can say my own morality and how i think i interact with the moralities of others and the ethics of the time. i think i'm very sensitive to others, so much so that i will lie my ass off through my teeth to try and follow their morals.
bleg, i'm not finishing that above paragraph so wordy like.
i'm just saying i lie a lot. and you guys know that. i'm trying to be honester. but i'm also scared that my honest will drive people away, because i'm pretty much utterly convinced in my mind that no one but myself will ever be able to live with my honest true self. but, i think thats wrong and that there are some people who will be able to live with myself.
mind reading. that would be cool.
i'm. going to take a break from this post, i'm sleepy, i actually might not even be alble to finish it tonight, i might fall asleep. but i'm just writing this little part so that readers can tell i wrote this the same night i went on a curhazy social website rampage saying many of my truthful thoughts about people on their websites.
kay.
------------------------------------------------------------------------------everything after this is written later.
and 3 movie trailers later, i'm thinking about other stuff. like the fact that John Murphy's "In a heartbeat" song is a peice of fantastic work that has now become insanle huge. Little selfish plug for myself here.... i downloaded that song.... many years ago cause i knew it was fantastic. ohkay, moving on. (John Murphy was the musical director of 28 Days later, In a heartbeat is that song you've all heard now that goes do do doo doo dooo dooo doo doo!)
lol, a warlock to all weapons not treated with the menstrual blood of a virgin? hahahahhaha
kay, i'm just going to post this now and wait for all the crazy comments tomorrow and have nothing not up and posted cuase its about 4;04 in the morning and i'm tired and dirty, but i'm not showering.
everything below the dashed line was written on the same day, just about 10 minutes later.
kay night guys and gals