waiting to breathe
I've felt really tense lately, like I can't relax or get a good calming breath in. My mind has been reeling through a million thoughts. I find myself compelled to action and then sit back idle, waiting and hoping things will change, which is rather unlike me. I've always been a very forward go to girl, always having to have things my way (and yes i'm willing to admit it). Hence, I find myself rather distressed by my own idleness in waiting; something I have always hated. I put other people's happiness and well being above my own and go out of my way and I honestly don't know why anymore. I feel like i'm starting to get trapped in myself. I have no ambitions to hang out with anyone anymore, or make new friends. and the nightmares still won't go away. I wish i could just escape my thoughts. I used to be able to numb myself out and now i just find myself caring about everything far to much for my own good. oh well.
p.s. - tricia i miss you!
p.s. - tricia i miss you!