wheeeeeeee!!!
ok, right now ryan is on his way here to pick me up and bring me back to savannah!! i know i should be running around doing shit-- and i am-- but i want to record these thoughts as i'm having them-- totally excited!! i'm listening to Antena, the Camino del Sol album ryan and i listened to all the time when we first started dating. every amazing song has the feeling of the moment when we were together, newly together-- exciting, exotic, romantic, sparkling. i felt then that he could do no wrong and believe it or not, i still feel that way. i picture his wide blue eyes, ocean blue-green, huge and deep, and his sweet full lips, his golden-brown hair, like an angel...every perfect inch of his body, his smooth terrific skin and long, lean legs...his heart-shaped beautiful face...a complete angel. his shyness, his quiet gentleness, his self-defacing dry humor...he is brilliant in a quiet way, shy about it. you might miss it if you didn't stop and really listen, and watch. i can't even describe why i love him, he tries so hard, he works so hard, he doesn't give up. i love watching him just be. i definitely think he is my muse. modest muse..