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Having relationship troubles... I'd say this is far from the best time for this sort of thing, but maybe with all the death and professional stress it has left me more open to honest reflection.
What do I want in the long run? What do I have to have and what is negotiable? How much should I listen to my heart and how much do I listen to my head?
I feel like I've never had the easiest time with relationships--any sort. Its hard to keep friendships going. The good parts seem really strong and good but there's always problems. The more time goes on the more I feel like I can't trust anyone to be honest and open with me. Not that people lie so much as they don't share their honest reactions and feelings with me. Do I make it so hard? It just makes me feel like a failure.
What do I want in the long run? What do I have to have and what is negotiable? How much should I listen to my heart and how much do I listen to my head?
I feel like I've never had the easiest time with relationships--any sort. Its hard to keep friendships going. The good parts seem really strong and good but there's always problems. The more time goes on the more I feel like I can't trust anyone to be honest and open with me. Not that people lie so much as they don't share their honest reactions and feelings with me. Do I make it so hard? It just makes me feel like a failure.