kinda back

[jet_crush]

Well yeah. i'm in limbo at my dad's. Tomorrow (Friday) i'll be popping down south again, dunno if it'll be early or late. And i may or may not end up chillin at my grandma's, where i will also have limited access. But i go "home" from there. so yeah.

Well.. The last week and a half (or so) has been.. wonderful. I saw Ashley. It was.. like coming

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part 2

[laulina]

Something that concerns me here...I am very very happy you and Ashley are back together and looking long term. But I would like to ask, what kind of partner/provider do you want to be? Do you want her respect and admiration, or will you put her in the position of having to always be trying to light a fire under your ass to do what needs doing? I know you want to have lots of money, but how do you think that will happen? You have to be willing to hustle and work hard, and make sacrifices to get there. If you are busy playing victim, it robs you of the energy and desire to accomplish these things you want. Remember, what you resist, persists! AND.....NO ONE is going to give it to you-you have to show the Universe you are willing to do what it takes, and know that YOU are worthy of having the things you want. That's the real crux there, Peanut-you just keep acting out your belief of worthlessness. I know this will sound harsh, but get your head out of your ass and get busy! I think Job Corp will be an excellent chance for you to build your esteem and skills and knowledge, and I am very excited for you to be going. But it will mean nothing if your outlook doesn't grow as well! And you know, whether you want to hear it again or not, that this applies to EVERYTHING in your life, not just the things you get or don't get.
Ren-you know I love you more than anything in the world, and ALL I want for you is to be healthy and happy. I see you over and over again sabotage yourself with these victim, selfish circles of thought. Your thoughts are magnets that act as requests to the Universe. It is not attached to good/bad, positive/negative. To It, it is simply like ordering a hamburger at McDonalds. It fills what you ask for. So it's up to you to get clear on what you want to be served.
I love you Peanut-
Mom