kinda back
Well yeah. i'm in limbo at my dad's. Tomorrow (Friday) i'll be popping down south again, dunno if it'll be early or late. And i may or may not end up chillin at my grandma's, where i will also have limited access. But i go "home" from there. so yeah.
Well.. The last week and a half (or so) has been.. wonderful. I saw Ashley. It was.. like coming home. Even though we actually went to a hotel. ^_^ Anyway.. i think.. i'll leave out the details. After our hotel we jumped out to the greater Monroe area and chilled in a cabin for a day or two. (and by chilled i mean LITERALLY.. it was friggin COLD out there! but nice all the same. ^_^). We got to see my mom and she brought us some stuff. Ash and mom do well together. ^_^ i was glad. I'll come back to the news from mum in a sec. Got to got out to dinner with Chris and Jodi and his fami and a couple of friends. It was his birthday and we drank and got silly. We got to be all crazy silly-like in the mall there in alderwood. it was freakin awesome. We need to knock some back more often. Anyway, after Ash and i were done with the cabin we went and stayed with my brother and sister-in-law. It was cool. Got to stay in their basement.. also cold. saw Peggy and her new office which is literally within sight of my brother's driveway. Yesterday, we hopped over to Wal-Mart and got some pictures taken. ^_^ they came out really cool.. unfortunatly i had to wear my DCFC hat because i was having a seriously bad hair day. so yeah. Hopefully i'll have me some more cash so i can order a few other poses when they come back. WHich is funny cause they're scheduled to come back on the 30th, which is ashley's birthday.. XD. Eric'll be pickin em up for us. Wewt. and that brings me to here. My dad picked us up, dropped her off and we came here.
On to mom. Her and Dave have officially called it off. This, makes me.. happy..? I'm glad she's getting out of the situation, and Dave's even going to be giving her some money over the nbext few months for living and to get her business started. wewt. I'm sorry she has to go through the hurt and the process again, which is never easy. So yeah.. Also, i'm hoping that she'll be able to watch my cats while i'm gone at Job corps. I love those damn cats and getting rid of them is the ABSOLUTE last resort. so yeah. the barrier THERE is, of course, my grandfather.
I've got a small problem too. As i intend on showing this to my mother i guess this is more for her but, oh well.. ya'll can read it too: I'm jealous of my family again. a little upset too. My mom.. got a BRAND new computer. yeah demo model which means it was a little less but still a DAMN FINE laptop. As you all may or may not know, i've never had anything NEW in my life over $100. PARTICULARLY a computer, which we all know i've needed for quite some time. (especially since NOW i'm doing my art on a computer). All my computers have been at LEAST third hand when i've gotten them. They've also fallen apart very shortly after getting them. Not that i've ever had one with any sort of power. so, watching mom show off her great new computer, which i know grandpa helped her with (more on THAT in a sec, too), was.. needless to say.. a bit tough. I know she needs a computer for work but does she need a $1000 worth of whup ass laptop? I dunno.. maybe she does.. but then.. so do I. She's also getting a brand new bed. Thgis is ALSO something i've needed for quite some time. mine is.. adequate i suppose, albeit also, falling apart.. literally. I guess.. what it is.. everyone is getting all this awesome new expensive stuff. And again. I'm stuck with.. crap. Either nothing or third hand stuff that falls to pieces. It gets old. And it really kinda makes me mad.
To grandpa. Well. I have one of my tax returns and it's going to be 195. A hefty chuck, especially since it's from Initial and the securitas one will be even more. For my trip up here, i needed funds and asked if i could borrow that so we'd beable to live a little comfortably. (we ran out of money yesterday). He only let me borrow 100. I took it, grateful and appreciative. Then, mom gets a new computer which I KNOW he dropped a lot of dough on. waaaait. there's something WRONG with that picture huh? why can't he let me borrow a little more which he KNOWS FOR SURE he'll get back in a timely manner?! I dont fuckin understand.. i really dont. anyone else want to explain it to me?! Why does everyone deny ME and give to others? Yeah okay. i sound selfish. But doesn't eveyone deserve to be a little from time to time? I've tried to help out. I've tried to be good. I've tried and tried and tried. But everything always happens for someone else! The fuck?
I can't wait until i'm out of job corps. The fam's worried that i'll be far away from "the support structure, should i need it.." Yeah well.. too bad. I'm leaving. I'm going away to San Diego, i wont be alone, and from there i'm the wind, baby. Catch me if you can. I can't wait to get away. THIS is my opportunity to run. And i will. Far, FAR away.
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