Finals are scary
We started practicing dancing fool for the open house in musical and it is greatly depressing. It made me want to do the whole musical all over again. Then I got mad because I remembered that after next week, there'd be no musical untill next year, and i'd have to spend third period doing ome other random class for the last 5 months of the school year. I am going to miss musical:s. I barely ever even consider it school, it's so fun. Whatever. I'm starting to sound like a big emo chick so i should probably shut up now.
Ah today was pretty good. I took lots of pictures and the weather was really nice. All we did in pretty much every class was study. I was thankful but it was really had to pay attention to anything. My mind kept wandering off and then the bell would ring and class would be over. I'm going to concentrate tomorrow if it kills me. After all, my science final is on Thursday and I still don't know half the stuff. man i better pass everything. Someone hug me.
Bloody Eff. It's crazy how a sudden gut feeling can make you change your mood so quickly. And it's crazy how suddenly a gut feeling like that can come to you. I'm almost 100% sure now that jealousy is one of the worst emotions in the world. It makes you hate people. Honestly, it makes you want to strangle random strangers only because they have something that you don't. Maybe it's something you've been wanting for a long time, and they keep taking it away from you. Or maybe it's a thing that you never really realized you wanted untill you saw that someone else had it...I hate jealousy. It can ruin peoples lives. Therefore, i am trying not to be jealous of anyone, but it's the hardest thing in the world. Mainly because what I want so badly is right in front of me, but i can't get it. And in the mean time, i have to watch others win. After jealousy comes hate. And the only thing worse than hating someone is being hated by someone you think the opposite of. And because i'm not even sure what i'm thinking, this is where the whole gut feeling thing comes in. I've always been one to jump to conclusions, and, well, this really sucks. I'm too paranoid. Maybe it's the whole science/finals thing, and the fact that i just really want to pass grade nine. Whatever. I guess i'll just have to see how tomorrow goes.
Alright, now after that sufficiently akward paragraph of my pointless thoughts that make no sense whatsoever, i am going to stop writing because my foot is getting crammed up against the computer desk and it hurts like a bastard. Good night.
Ah today was pretty good. I took lots of pictures and the weather was really nice. All we did in pretty much every class was study. I was thankful but it was really had to pay attention to anything. My mind kept wandering off and then the bell would ring and class would be over. I'm going to concentrate tomorrow if it kills me. After all, my science final is on Thursday and I still don't know half the stuff. man i better pass everything. Someone hug me.
Bloody Eff. It's crazy how a sudden gut feeling can make you change your mood so quickly. And it's crazy how suddenly a gut feeling like that can come to you. I'm almost 100% sure now that jealousy is one of the worst emotions in the world. It makes you hate people. Honestly, it makes you want to strangle random strangers only because they have something that you don't. Maybe it's something you've been wanting for a long time, and they keep taking it away from you. Or maybe it's a thing that you never really realized you wanted untill you saw that someone else had it...I hate jealousy. It can ruin peoples lives. Therefore, i am trying not to be jealous of anyone, but it's the hardest thing in the world. Mainly because what I want so badly is right in front of me, but i can't get it. And in the mean time, i have to watch others win. After jealousy comes hate. And the only thing worse than hating someone is being hated by someone you think the opposite of. And because i'm not even sure what i'm thinking, this is where the whole gut feeling thing comes in. I've always been one to jump to conclusions, and, well, this really sucks. I'm too paranoid. Maybe it's the whole science/finals thing, and the fact that i just really want to pass grade nine. Whatever. I guess i'll just have to see how tomorrow goes.
Alright, now after that sufficiently akward paragraph of my pointless thoughts that make no sense whatsoever, i am going to stop writing because my foot is getting crammed up against the computer desk and it hurts like a bastard. Good night.