oooh, aftermath
Jesus Christ last night was strange! I was having a great time at oasis and hanging out with everyone and everything was fine.... Until I got invited to this party after oasis. I know, why would things start to go downhill when you're invited to a party? But you know, im crazy and everything. I get really uncomfortable when I am asked to go somewhere where people I dont know will be there. Actually, I get terrified. I never used to be that way, but I also never used to be this self-conscience. I started to think that I didnt want to go in case the people there were good looking, or everyone was dancing, or I was going to be the fattest person there. So I did what I do best, and had a panic attack. I totally flipped out. I told mykie and ally that they should go and I would just meet up with them later. I started to pull out of oasis, and started crying so hard I couldnt drive, which was embarassing because then I was sitting in a parking space in the oasis parking lot balling and yelling to my dad on the phone about how much I hate myself. Lol, Im such a nerd. Then, of course it was time for everyone to get in their cars and go to the party, so they all drove by me while I was freaking out, and Im sure they all think Im absolutely insane now. Im such a dusche-bag. Then I went to dan and aprils, and passed out after like an hour. Stupid night. I just want to sleep all day. Blech.