Hey my love. If love wasn't complicated, then it would be boring. And less special when you find your true love. You will care no matter what. You pick out the things that annoy so that in your mind, so that in return he will finally annoy you, and you think that will make your feelings for him go away. I do it too. I have done it with Justin. I have said sooo many horrible things to him, or about him, and bout the situation, because in my mind, that makes me feel better. I want the things I say to hurt him, because he hurt me. And I have a feeling, you are trying to do the same. You can't stop caring, some people can, I know you're not one of those. You're like me, and I honestly still care for Brock, but its not in the same way anymore. It takes a lot of time to get over the first love. And no matter what, you are the only one who can make yourself feel better. You have to stop telling yourself he will come back... and you have to accept that he is gone. It is sooo much easier said then done, and I know that. I promise. Eventually, he will stop coming into your mind all the time, and you will stop thinkin bout those special times. But it takes a lot of time. I know sweetie, it hurts, and it sucks... but it gets better... God has a plan for you, and God doesn't make it easy on anybody. Its all a test, and I think you are doing great... hang in there my love... I love you more then words can ever explain. And I miss you sooo damn much. I am always here for you, and I will always try my best to help you. I love you sweetheart!!
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