She's Good People
So. I had an amazing time for my 3rd time being in Aiken, and this time it wasnt stained by someone from my past. It was spent with some good people. This is what I've wanted, no drama that anyone started, just chill stuff, just hanging out, just thinking, just having a good time. And I was hot, my date was chill and hot, i got loved on but not too much. So Deuce and I established that we will not have sex for a month b/c he doesnt want a rebound, which is exactly what he is to me right now b/c while he's a great guy, I'm distancing myself from him and just enjoying the company. While its fun to joke about, I dont think we will ever have sex, b/c I dont think this relationship is going to go anywhere. He has made me realize some things though. Everett was way too uptight about stuff, he had little rules to follow and stuff and really didnt go with the flow. I love being with Deuce b/c he has the same sense of humor as me and he isnt afraid to enjoy some things. He says that he is self consious though, which I can see why a little but he's really hot to me and has always been. He has a ritual where he goes to Pub 261 mondays and wed. and I met up w/ him there those days this week after work. It was great just chillin, not talkin, just being somewhere with somebody, the simple life. I enjoy it. I always want more but I know that it will come, we have good conversation before bed when we are both a little tipsy, then cuddle up in each others arms. Everyone said it was really sweet which is great. He got upset when he thought me and kenny were flirting a little too much, but that is just our personality and it was okay b/c Kenny and I talked and stuff and it was awesome. I love being confided in! I realize these are the people I love, not the drama bullshit of last weekend in Florence. I will always have them as friends but we are all very different and we dont accept each other the way we used to. The age thing was making me worried about my life. But Deuce is 26 and I'm only 22. My mother didnt marry till she was 29, I mean why rush things? I was definately in need of some more experiences rather than settling down with Everett, who is definately not my type. Well I dont know what will happen, probably nothing, but its good to know that I'm still hot and wanted, still smart and sassy, still flirty and fun. And I can drink beer now. ha. I gotta get some responsibility under my belt soon though. I'm afraid of the future b/c of my money situation right now and who knows what will happen on tuesday with the whole Army deal. I'm gonna dream now though. Goodnight.