HES DYING....
Things have been gay lately...i hate being so emotional, i wish i could be the type of person not to care. Although im someone to hate my father w/ a passion, i cant help but freak out. he has some...infection in his leg i found out, either his leg is going to be cut off or hes gunna die. i havent talked to thee guy in like 8 years, he didnt give a shit when i was having surgery didnt give about anything. why does it hurt so bad? why do i even care if he dies? he ruined my life, scarred me for life. he hurt me and my mom and brothers physically, and scarred us emotionally, at least me. No one really knows...i think only like 2 pewople know why i really started crying fri last week. its sounds stupid but im one of those ppl who try not to let things affect me, yet they always do. getting chewede up and spit out by a friend after asking them if they can help me w/ an essay asking what ppl think of u doesnt help my mood. and now ive been totally off doing everything, ive been losing everything and my mom wants to shank me. the other day she literally told me that i have become a screw up..hah thanx mom. sorry if i act weird to anyone lately...i guess im just blah at the point of my father dying...