something that had to be said...
i wrote and sent this letter in late august. for those of you who know me, you probably know who it was addressed to, but their name will be left unsaid. as much as i liked to say things changed after this letter, they havent. i havent spoken to this person yet, however i have seen him... its just awkward glances when i do. but i had to write this letter for myself, and i still think its pretty darn good. say what you want... it wont affect me.
dear __,
i think honesty is really the best policy. it eliminates the phonies, for the vast majority, and gets everything out in the open. i wish for others to be open with me, and i try my best to return that notion. with that said, i'm going to be honest with you. a little under a month ago i received a comment from you. this comment was in response to me telling how much i've been hurt, felt rejected, and am now afraid to take risks. you responded to this by telling the immense pain of a broken heart, saying i had low self confidence, and how much you had been hurt. now, here's the irony: you hurt and rejected me. this whole letter is not pertaining just to that comment but how you treated me at a whole. __, i tried so many times to really get to know you. i tried so many times to just simply hang out with you. i liked you, but i would have settled with being just friends; but you never gave me that opportunity. as hard as i tried, and how often i tried i was never given a real chance. maybe i'm just naive and hopeful, but i believe everyone deserves at least a chance. for, it is chance that enable people to live life to the fullest. everytime i attempted to see you, to just simply hang out, you had all too many excuses of why you couldn't. even when i tried to talk to you about this situation right before you went to ------; you could not spare so much as an hour. i do realize people can be quite busy; i myself have a hectic schedule. however, i have never seen someone avoid something or someone as you did. i'm not trying to undermine the fact that you've been hurt, i'm well aware that in the past few years you have been hurt a number of times. but ____, i didn't hurt you; if i'm not mistaken i didn't do anything wrong to you. i also realize that in the past year you have had a couple of girlfriends, and during those times i honestly wanted nothing more than your friendship. i wish you give people a chance in life - life's far too short. "i want to believe that 'there is truth, love is real'. and i want life in every word to the extent that it's absurd." __, i do hope you find that love. despite everything i've said, i do not hate you, i just want you to see the effects of your own actions. my number is ***-****, if you'd ever just like to talk all this over. i did try to talk to you about all this, but this way just seemed the next best.
sincerely,
Jess Booth
the girl you never knew.
dear __,
i think honesty is really the best policy. it eliminates the phonies, for the vast majority, and gets everything out in the open. i wish for others to be open with me, and i try my best to return that notion. with that said, i'm going to be honest with you. a little under a month ago i received a comment from you. this comment was in response to me telling how much i've been hurt, felt rejected, and am now afraid to take risks. you responded to this by telling the immense pain of a broken heart, saying i had low self confidence, and how much you had been hurt. now, here's the irony: you hurt and rejected me. this whole letter is not pertaining just to that comment but how you treated me at a whole. __, i tried so many times to really get to know you. i tried so many times to just simply hang out with you. i liked you, but i would have settled with being just friends; but you never gave me that opportunity. as hard as i tried, and how often i tried i was never given a real chance. maybe i'm just naive and hopeful, but i believe everyone deserves at least a chance. for, it is chance that enable people to live life to the fullest. everytime i attempted to see you, to just simply hang out, you had all too many excuses of why you couldn't. even when i tried to talk to you about this situation right before you went to ------; you could not spare so much as an hour. i do realize people can be quite busy; i myself have a hectic schedule. however, i have never seen someone avoid something or someone as you did. i'm not trying to undermine the fact that you've been hurt, i'm well aware that in the past few years you have been hurt a number of times. but ____, i didn't hurt you; if i'm not mistaken i didn't do anything wrong to you. i also realize that in the past year you have had a couple of girlfriends, and during those times i honestly wanted nothing more than your friendship. i wish you give people a chance in life - life's far too short. "i want to believe that 'there is truth, love is real'. and i want life in every word to the extent that it's absurd." __, i do hope you find that love. despite everything i've said, i do not hate you, i just want you to see the effects of your own actions. my number is ***-****, if you'd ever just like to talk all this over. i did try to talk to you about all this, but this way just seemed the next best.
sincerely,
Jess Booth
the girl you never knew.