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i had this amazing dream sunday night. it embodied what i want. and so i know what i want, and who i want it with. the thing is i've decided to give up on him; what else is there i can do? not that this one knows how i feel, but he's part of the past. et moi, i need to get in the future. i hate that i can't have what i want.
so many peoples responses in the past 2 days are just "well then just go for him, you don't know that he doesn't" and such. but thats the thing, in the past there was nothing, it was a one way street, so how do peoples minds just get changed?
i had moved on for a very very very long time, its just i moved back in. but regardless, i'm going to try for other guys, and give things time. time is everything. i do fancy other people so we will see.
i'm not sure what time will even do, but it seems the only solution. i've got 1295674389 questions, and zero answers.
but hey, doesn't everyone?
i need new experiences, everything just seems too similar. everyone just seems like the characters that never develope. i need new. even clothes are starting to bore me, all my 95 tops are the same.
no one is an individual, and that bothers me so much. but its the truth. i hate that i don't believe in individuals, my mind has become almost too mechanical.
who knows where i'm going with any of this.
so many peoples responses in the past 2 days are just "well then just go for him, you don't know that he doesn't" and such. but thats the thing, in the past there was nothing, it was a one way street, so how do peoples minds just get changed?
i had moved on for a very very very long time, its just i moved back in. but regardless, i'm going to try for other guys, and give things time. time is everything. i do fancy other people so we will see.
i'm not sure what time will even do, but it seems the only solution. i've got 1295674389 questions, and zero answers.
but hey, doesn't everyone?
i need new experiences, everything just seems too similar. everyone just seems like the characters that never develope. i need new. even clothes are starting to bore me, all my 95 tops are the same.
no one is an individual, and that bothers me so much. but its the truth. i hate that i don't believe in individuals, my mind has become almost too mechanical.
who knows where i'm going with any of this.