"Yesterday, all my troubles seemed so far away"
so yesterday, i finally did what i needed to do. i was walking to musical practice, and i decided to randomly tell christina what was going(the 3 cancer's in my life). that went fine, she was very comforting. then we were sitting in the auditorium, and i go and sit next to erica, and tell her whats been going on. by the time i got to the facts on my mom i was crying. i just broke down in erica's arms. it was when i said "my mom might have cancer" that i lost it. she was so good through out the entire thing. then christina gave me a hug before we danced, and the 3 of us talked about it. thats why those 2 are some are my closest friends. they both told me if i need to talk they're there.
christina and erica was what i needed. i needed to tell someone who would just give me a hug, and let me cry.
as a matter of fact those are the 1st people i've told in person. the only others who know are those who read this, and thats basically none of my closest friends.
rocky came home last night. but he's leaving today, he has frat things tomorrow to attend to. he doesn't want to graduate, he wants a few more years at college. the scary reality that i'm only 7 and 1/2 months away from being a junior has come. i;ve started getting college information, no school's i'd ever go to. there was st. mary's the all girls catholic school in indiana; umm i need guys, and i'm not catholic(not much of anything). then there was university of rochester that said they had around 10 people per class, umm what is that like a book club? then there was this one in NY state, that was like a travel brochure for new york city; my favorite line was "you can see the new york museum of modern art, or go to a show"
i want to go to northwestern, UC berkley, or NYU. can't go to berkley cause its too expensive out of state, and i wouldn't go home almost ever. maybe for law school
my mom has a biospey on thursday. i hope hope hope she doesnt have cancer. please no. i don't know what i'll do.
she left for louisiana today.
oh its valentines day. i might be hanging out with gena, and we'll sit and watch movies.
our bubble has a lack of guys that are my type.
christina and erica was what i needed. i needed to tell someone who would just give me a hug, and let me cry.
as a matter of fact those are the 1st people i've told in person. the only others who know are those who read this, and thats basically none of my closest friends.
rocky came home last night. but he's leaving today, he has frat things tomorrow to attend to. he doesn't want to graduate, he wants a few more years at college. the scary reality that i'm only 7 and 1/2 months away from being a junior has come. i;ve started getting college information, no school's i'd ever go to. there was st. mary's the all girls catholic school in indiana; umm i need guys, and i'm not catholic(not much of anything). then there was university of rochester that said they had around 10 people per class, umm what is that like a book club? then there was this one in NY state, that was like a travel brochure for new york city; my favorite line was "you can see the new york museum of modern art, or go to a show"
i want to go to northwestern, UC berkley, or NYU. can't go to berkley cause its too expensive out of state, and i wouldn't go home almost ever. maybe for law school
my mom has a biospey on thursday. i hope hope hope she doesnt have cancer. please no. i don't know what i'll do.
she left for louisiana today.
oh its valentines day. i might be hanging out with gena, and we'll sit and watch movies.
our bubble has a lack of guys that are my type.