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Look guys, before you get all upity about the Liz thing, I will try to explain. Even though most of the time I seem happy and everything, the Liz thing still gets me down. I need something seperate from her socialy. Some people I can turn to. I thought of you guys (you know who you are) as those people, because you were my friends, like say, Katy is Liz's friend. Its really hard when the people you were relying on to be there for you about something painful in your life are hanging out with the cause of the pain, and not inviting you no less, no matter what the reason was. Its hard which means it hurts. Some of you have seeminly unreasonable problems with friends and who they hang out with. I cant help it and this whole mall thing really made me feel like shit. I know its unreasonable that I be hurt about this on a "thinking" type level, but on an emotional level thats how it is. If you havent read the post before this one, it is new also. I would love nothing more than to be best friends with all of you guys and Liz, shes a really great person, but I cant right now and it is killing me. I want to feel how you all want me to feel, so HELP ME!!!