i feel like one day ill want to look back on this day.
and i dont feel bad for doing this late...it will take like 2 minutes becuase i know exactlly what i want to write.
-- flexibility and optimism are overrated...sometimes you have to say f being optimistic...right now im pissed, pessimisitc, and stressed. If you dont want to deal with me, then get out of my way. If you do, then get ready to hear a lot of bitching.
-- when one thing becomes your life thats not healthy.
-- loyalty to someone you hardly know will teach you a lot about yourself. it takes you to the level of an actual friendship. im glad we're getting there.
-- power trips are the worst thing ever. you shut out people that way.
-- i hate hypocrisy.
-- i hate the feeling of when your body says "please no more. I need you to slow down."
-- im too old to be scared of adults. I need to start standing up for myself...if she fails me then so be it...at least ill be proud of how i went out.
-- i hate details yet im so attached to them. "easy going" is not a quality i have and im starting to wish i did.
-- when the only words you hear coming out of your mouth are complaints or problems then theres something wrong. case and point.
-- as far as fish camp goes, right now all i care about is myself, my partner, and my camp. done and done. if that sounds selfish i dont care. I am not responsible for your life. thats not my decision thats just how its got to be right now. for my own sanity.
-- stressing over your inability to handle stress is probably the worst kind of stress.
-- i hate when people think something is funny and its really not. its not their fault they dont understand but it still sucks. at least respect the position if you dont respect the person. Don't talk about something thats important to me the way you do acting as if you know everything. to put it plainly: dont be a cocky bastard.
-- i cant keep a secret to save my life and thast going to bite me in the ass quite a few times in the next 3 days.
-- i wish i was better at this.
tomorrow will be more of an emotional rollercoaster than today. this year will be more of an emotional rollercoaster than any other year. and im about ready to jump out of the rollercoaster and say f the ride.
-- flexibility and optimism are overrated...sometimes you have to say f being optimistic...right now im pissed, pessimisitc, and stressed. If you dont want to deal with me, then get out of my way. If you do, then get ready to hear a lot of bitching.
-- when one thing becomes your life thats not healthy.
-- loyalty to someone you hardly know will teach you a lot about yourself. it takes you to the level of an actual friendship. im glad we're getting there.
-- power trips are the worst thing ever. you shut out people that way.
-- i hate hypocrisy.
-- i hate the feeling of when your body says "please no more. I need you to slow down."
-- im too old to be scared of adults. I need to start standing up for myself...if she fails me then so be it...at least ill be proud of how i went out.
-- i hate details yet im so attached to them. "easy going" is not a quality i have and im starting to wish i did.
-- when the only words you hear coming out of your mouth are complaints or problems then theres something wrong. case and point.
-- as far as fish camp goes, right now all i care about is myself, my partner, and my camp. done and done. if that sounds selfish i dont care. I am not responsible for your life. thats not my decision thats just how its got to be right now. for my own sanity.
-- stressing over your inability to handle stress is probably the worst kind of stress.
-- i hate when people think something is funny and its really not. its not their fault they dont understand but it still sucks. at least respect the position if you dont respect the person. Don't talk about something thats important to me the way you do acting as if you know everything. to put it plainly: dont be a cocky bastard.
-- i cant keep a secret to save my life and thast going to bite me in the ass quite a few times in the next 3 days.
-- i wish i was better at this.
tomorrow will be more of an emotional rollercoaster than today. this year will be more of an emotional rollercoaster than any other year. and im about ready to jump out of the rollercoaster and say f the ride.