A clean conscience, and all it's blisses
Today was a major wake-up call. But I think that I knew it was coming, all along. And the reason I couldn't decide to go was because I knew I couldn't do it.
My mom cried when I told her. She was so relieved. I think they're getting me a macbook.
All day I've had to convince myself that I'm happy.
And I think I am.
I think in the end, Cal had a lot more options for me than Vassar did. Having money does provide the freedom to pursue your goals. And even though I loved it to death when I visited, I don't think I could've lived with that much debt hanging over me. I might've pulled a Lily Bart.
So the world is bleak. At least now I can go shopping again. And I can go to grad school. And my parents can get that house in PA that they've been wanting for so long.
I realized that no matter how independently I live my life, I can't be who I am without them.
It's a very long rope. But we choose to hold on to it.
My mom cried when I told her. She was so relieved. I think they're getting me a macbook.
All day I've had to convince myself that I'm happy.
And I think I am.
I think in the end, Cal had a lot more options for me than Vassar did. Having money does provide the freedom to pursue your goals. And even though I loved it to death when I visited, I don't think I could've lived with that much debt hanging over me. I might've pulled a Lily Bart.
So the world is bleak. At least now I can go shopping again. And I can go to grad school. And my parents can get that house in PA that they've been wanting for so long.
I realized that no matter how independently I live my life, I can't be who I am without them.
It's a very long rope. But we choose to hold on to it.