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after a full day in the hospital on saturday ive been put on anti-depressants and anti-anxiety pills. i feel so worthless right now.. nothing is worth it nothing is fun nothing nothing nothing makes me smile anymore. i push my boyfriend away. even though my mom is doing so much to help me i push her away and i get mad so easily. im always tired. i feel so groggy. my head is full of nothing. the only thing i can make myself think about is how is life worth all of this shit im being put through with these pills. it would be so easy for me to go outside and jump in front of a truck. i cant even imagine myself getting better. i dont know what to do with my days because nothing seems worthwhile to do. im wasting my time, im aware of it, but i cant get myself to do anything to make the time passing feel "better". apparently in 10 days minimum ill feel like myself again. its only been 4 days. i dont even know if i can last the rest of the time. if any of you understand what im going through or have been through this or are going through this please give a response.. any response will help. as long as i can know that im not alone and that it will get better. thanks