baby steps, or one giant leap hmm,
So here the thing, what the hell is going on. Right now it's been over four months since the last time. Yeah damn thats a long time. Anyways, I find my freedom setting and surfing the net at the local Panera. Also lets not forget the supposed novel that I am currently writing. I look around and see so many versions of what women are suppose to be and I am sick to my stomach. Everything revolves around finding a man and people's bf's. Also lets not forget marriage, did I mentions a great deal of the kids down here are engaged and so on. I am not putting down relationships. I think they are great but down here it's like as I said before stereotypes rule and you find very few who actually try to break the mold.
Day in and day out I realize that I have not seen very many true punks and have not even seen one real hippy. After months down here I have found that I have reverted back to what I used to be back in the day with a few revisions. The last time I spent this much time down here I was leaving to go to northern for the first time.
Maybe I needed this time away to figure out what and who I really am. I have figured that all out and I am now truly ready for what ever may come. I think my mom may find out that I'm BI which I am now ready to deal with. I'm not going to tell her but she is hell bent on finding my brother and his wife on myspace. If she finds them then she can find me. So really it's not my fault if she finds out. I mean what can you do, it's a part of me but not all of me. So we'll see how that goes. I miss my friends, I miss my old life. What can you do but take one step at a time. It should be on hell of a ride haha oh yeah. ;)
Day in and day out I realize that I have not seen very many true punks and have not even seen one real hippy. After months down here I have found that I have reverted back to what I used to be back in the day with a few revisions. The last time I spent this much time down here I was leaving to go to northern for the first time.
Maybe I needed this time away to figure out what and who I really am. I have figured that all out and I am now truly ready for what ever may come. I think my mom may find out that I'm BI which I am now ready to deal with. I'm not going to tell her but she is hell bent on finding my brother and his wife on myspace. If she finds them then she can find me. So really it's not my fault if she finds out. I mean what can you do, it's a part of me but not all of me. So we'll see how that goes. I miss my friends, I miss my old life. What can you do but take one step at a time. It should be on hell of a ride haha oh yeah. ;)