Dilemma x 2
hey everybody! i had a good night last night! got up to pretty much all of my antics! lol messed about with leanne a bit :D...erm the end of the night was ok apart from jsmie being a complete cunt! anywho...because of that ive been totally head fucked all day today...its been a pretty shit day but not because the day i shit...the day is fine...ive had plenty of laughs and messing about its just im not even sure who is my mate from who is anymore and it seems everyone is out to get something from me....because nelly has it all to give, right? aye :(...so im just let go of all the people who havent been any help to me and have made my life a little hard... i must say i have to thank leanne so much coz shes been there for me more than anyone ever had my lifetime...and lets not forget people like skippy and nat whos also there.
There is this guy i like and he likes me...and the second i was with him and i started getting closer and was remotely happy with him, i feel like running away...i dont want to fall in love...not ever! so ive convinced myself that we are totally different people and that it will never work...i spent ages thinking yesterday, how great it felt when we play fight and mess about and hed kiss me and hed smile and he sat with me and waited for the bus even tho the arse wanted to leave me lazy cunt and he lived like 5 seconds away lol...i wanted to say i didnt notice his eyes...or his smile....and how much he wants to hug me everytime he sees me....i dont want to take so much detail, the last time this happened it didnt turn out so good! i know i will run...im just not going through the whole i want you you want sex...so thats why college hasnt been as good as it should be...i think too much..but im scared! so scared! *sighs* oh well guess i shouldnt be scared because i dont love him yet!
There is this guy i like and he likes me...and the second i was with him and i started getting closer and was remotely happy with him, i feel like running away...i dont want to fall in love...not ever! so ive convinced myself that we are totally different people and that it will never work...i spent ages thinking yesterday, how great it felt when we play fight and mess about and hed kiss me and hed smile and he sat with me and waited for the bus even tho the arse wanted to leave me lazy cunt and he lived like 5 seconds away lol...i wanted to say i didnt notice his eyes...or his smile....and how much he wants to hug me everytime he sees me....i dont want to take so much detail, the last time this happened it didnt turn out so good! i know i will run...im just not going through the whole i want you you want sex...so thats why college hasnt been as good as it should be...i think too much..but im scared! so scared! *sighs* oh well guess i shouldnt be scared because i dont love him yet!