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why is it that when i decide to write in here, depressed and awful thoughts come up in my mind. and i would like to put them out on here but i guess i just cant. before i even came to this website i was happy. but when i logged in, my stomache started to hurt and my heart dropped. i guess im not the appiest person in the world. everything is fine with miguel. i guess there are some problems between us . but not anything important. i have issues of my own. but of course its just me. its my confused mind messing with me and making me feel this way.
tomorrow miguel is closing and im off. and i feel lonely and hrroble with out him becuase i dont have many friends to hang out with. i can call up diane to hang out but of course shes very busy with school and work and her bf. she is a very dear friend of mine. i guess i like her so much because she is terribly nice and innocent. i guess i feel comfortable around her and i know that shes not going to ever judge nor hurt me.
i hung out with britney a few weeks ago and i realized how much i miss her. we dont really hang out anymore but we do keep in touch. when im with her its like middle schiool all over again.we laugh our asses off and nothing. and those are going to be moments i will never forget.
im not sure why i still write in here even tho no one reads it. maybe some friends once in a while. but i guess it just eases my mind. and writing in here always brings me back to the high school years. i dont regret anything. or anybody ive met. ive learned alot and i wouldnt be where i am today. and i wouldnt make the same mistakes. i hope.
me and tina got into a deep discussioni last night. we talked for hours of just.. life .. and our pasts and our futures. im glad wwe said what we said. i didnt realize what shes going through right now.
she let me drive her car to heb and back. it was fun. i just want to get a car already so i can leave.
there are many things i would like to let out but i cant right now. i think my life has changed alot since ive met miguel. before him , i saw people and things and life differently. i miss the old days alot. i miss my old friends and it kills me to not have any of that anymore.
ah idk. but of course ill never regret meeting him. i love him.
later.
tomorrow miguel is closing and im off. and i feel lonely and hrroble with out him becuase i dont have many friends to hang out with. i can call up diane to hang out but of course shes very busy with school and work and her bf. she is a very dear friend of mine. i guess i like her so much because she is terribly nice and innocent. i guess i feel comfortable around her and i know that shes not going to ever judge nor hurt me.
i hung out with britney a few weeks ago and i realized how much i miss her. we dont really hang out anymore but we do keep in touch. when im with her its like middle schiool all over again.we laugh our asses off and nothing. and those are going to be moments i will never forget.
im not sure why i still write in here even tho no one reads it. maybe some friends once in a while. but i guess it just eases my mind. and writing in here always brings me back to the high school years. i dont regret anything. or anybody ive met. ive learned alot and i wouldnt be where i am today. and i wouldnt make the same mistakes. i hope.
me and tina got into a deep discussioni last night. we talked for hours of just.. life .. and our pasts and our futures. im glad wwe said what we said. i didnt realize what shes going through right now.
she let me drive her car to heb and back. it was fun. i just want to get a car already so i can leave.
there are many things i would like to let out but i cant right now. i think my life has changed alot since ive met miguel. before him , i saw people and things and life differently. i miss the old days alot. i miss my old friends and it kills me to not have any of that anymore.
ah idk. but of course ill never regret meeting him. i love him.
later.