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so i've done a lot of thinking in the past few days and made a lot of decisions. one is im done smoking pot. yea it make me happy for a little while but in the end just tired. i have not smoked in 5 days im so proud of myself. school is starting very soon. i have relized that im out in the "real world" as what most people call it. i wanna do really good in ecc so i can transfer outta state my main goal is to get into a school in cali. yea i kno everyone wants to go there but its been my dream since i was little and if i can at least get in to a college out there i'll be good. once school starts im not going to go out as much as i do now my life is going to be all about work and studying. i wanna start doing things for myself and not care what anyone else is doing. i dont always need to go out and spend money that i can be saving for my car and other things. i wanna do sumthing wiht my life and not end up in 30 years still living in lancaster. my aunt told me she regrets not going outta state to school. shes always wondering what her life would be like if she did go away. i dont wanna wonder i wanna do it and get outta here. im not saying that its all that bad here but too much has happen to me around here and i wanna just forget about the bad things and remeber the good. RACHEL i just wanna say i love you and thanks for always being there for me. i kno we have gotten in to fights but look were friends again and never been closer. your the only person i can tell everything to and we think the same(well share a brain). i have so much fun with you even if its just driving around doing nothing. your the best friend anyone could have. you always listen to my problems and have the best solutions. i love u tonz.