Can't resist a good nudge!
Okay! Okay, I give in! I'll update, and let ya'll know a little bit of what's going on in my life. But of course, not all. I'm secretive like that.
So anyway, I haven't updated in over twenty weeks (apparently), but who's counting right? So what has gone on since then. Hmmm...a lot. I'll condense.
In summer, rediscovered girl from high school, dated, wonderful, shootings stars, the whole shebang. Summer is cut short and I reluctantly return to the Earlham bubble to write more pointless papers that will certainly add to my overall life plan that has yet to be created. Of course, as one can imagine, much procrastination ensued thereafter.
In the fall semester, I was incredibly busy with 3 choirs in addition to all my classes. It was incredibly overwhelming and I promised myself I would not do it again. And then...spring semester, I auditioned for the musical, Guys and Dolls. Having done it in high school, and even though it was not necessarily a good experience, I felt like I should give it a chance in college. It also didn't help that my choir director, Dan G., is incredibly persuasive. In any case, I got in and again found that I had bitten off much more than I could chew. With a decent part, Benny Southstreet, a ass of a director and the most unprofessional choreographer, we spent at least 4 hours if not more a night/day rehearsing. This also included all weekend days, usually for 2 to 6 hours at a time. It was certainly more of a committment than any of us had signed up for.
But anyway, that's overwith; our final performance was last Saturday, and strike for the set was tonight (which I guiltlessly skipped in order to attend some incredible senior Comparative Languages and Liguistic presentations.) So yeah, now I have the time to make up all the work I missed as a result of the musical. Yay!! And with only two weeks of school left. Arg!!
It has been a really frustrating and sobering semester. I was accepted to study in Japan and help teach English for next fall semester. Very apprehensive, weary of the cultural barriers of self expression and whatnot, not feeling like I made the right decision knowing that Spanish is my true love in language. But, also feeling the pressure and realizing that I HAVE TO GO to Japan if I ever want to graduate from Earlham. Taking off a semester can really screw up your 4 year plan, I've discovered. Oh well, that's life. Deal with it!
Currently, I'm just trying to catch up in my classes, while juggling relationship confusion. I'm still somewhat involved with the girl from home. However, recent events suggest that I have in fact been falling for another here at Earlham. However, this new falling seems to be quite temporary as we all will be leaving Earlham in a couple weeks. My new relationship is far more passionate and interesting than my previous; however, I feel like there's still much to gain from the other one. It is not a toss up, but it's close, and I'm not sure how to deal with this apparently not so unique dilemma. What also makes it tough is that since I am so busy, I don't really have the time to invest in either of these relationships. So in all, it seems like a loss loss situation. Honestly, I'm becoming really tired of the attention. I've had so many opportunities this year to develope interesting and possible intimate relationships with people, but all seem to happen at once. As a result, I feel an incredible amount of pressure not to engage because I feel like I'm already committed to another. But then again, I also feel like I'm limiting myself in not choosing to pursue a path that could lead to a great deal of personal growth. I'm my two most current relationships I was very much divided on this issue. In one, I will not grow as much as I am the one who seems to be teaching all the new ideas, working on issues like body-image and self-confidence, issues I really don't care to teach on as many occasions as I already have. It's incredibly tiring trying to convince someone they're beautiful when they've been told their whole life that their average or even less so. And as someone who is quite confident like myself, I can be an intimidating figure without intending to be. I enjoy helping people, I really do. But I also want to live my life and grow WITH SOMEONE. I don't feel satisfied in a relationship where I'm primarily the active participant. Sometime's I really would like my significant other to choose where to go to dinner or what movie to see. Confidence, self-love, and aspirations FIRST, then talk to me.
So anyway, as one can see, this semester has been quite confusing in virtually every aspect for me. And I'm really glad that it will be ending soon. However, I'm still apprehensive about going to Japan, I don't have solid work plans for the summer (I'm certainly not working in a factory again), and I'm not sure what the future will look like as far as my relationships are concerned. But it's all okay, I really don't have the time to care right now. I have 4 papers to write, 3 presentations, and at least 2 exams to start studying for. And so it begins!
Okay, so I realize this website/service, whatever it is, affords people the opportunity to make comments. And that's fine; however, it is unlikely that I will respond to comments made since (1) this journal is more for me than for you, and (2) I simply do not have the time to be responding to X number of people who may misunderstand and twist my words anyway. So if you really have something crucial to say, just call or come and talk to me.
Later Dudes!
So anyway, I haven't updated in over twenty weeks (apparently), but who's counting right? So what has gone on since then. Hmmm...a lot. I'll condense.
In summer, rediscovered girl from high school, dated, wonderful, shootings stars, the whole shebang. Summer is cut short and I reluctantly return to the Earlham bubble to write more pointless papers that will certainly add to my overall life plan that has yet to be created. Of course, as one can imagine, much procrastination ensued thereafter.
In the fall semester, I was incredibly busy with 3 choirs in addition to all my classes. It was incredibly overwhelming and I promised myself I would not do it again. And then...spring semester, I auditioned for the musical, Guys and Dolls. Having done it in high school, and even though it was not necessarily a good experience, I felt like I should give it a chance in college. It also didn't help that my choir director, Dan G., is incredibly persuasive. In any case, I got in and again found that I had bitten off much more than I could chew. With a decent part, Benny Southstreet, a ass of a director and the most unprofessional choreographer, we spent at least 4 hours if not more a night/day rehearsing. This also included all weekend days, usually for 2 to 6 hours at a time. It was certainly more of a committment than any of us had signed up for.
But anyway, that's overwith; our final performance was last Saturday, and strike for the set was tonight (which I guiltlessly skipped in order to attend some incredible senior Comparative Languages and Liguistic presentations.) So yeah, now I have the time to make up all the work I missed as a result of the musical. Yay!! And with only two weeks of school left. Arg!!
It has been a really frustrating and sobering semester. I was accepted to study in Japan and help teach English for next fall semester. Very apprehensive, weary of the cultural barriers of self expression and whatnot, not feeling like I made the right decision knowing that Spanish is my true love in language. But, also feeling the pressure and realizing that I HAVE TO GO to Japan if I ever want to graduate from Earlham. Taking off a semester can really screw up your 4 year plan, I've discovered. Oh well, that's life. Deal with it!
Currently, I'm just trying to catch up in my classes, while juggling relationship confusion. I'm still somewhat involved with the girl from home. However, recent events suggest that I have in fact been falling for another here at Earlham. However, this new falling seems to be quite temporary as we all will be leaving Earlham in a couple weeks. My new relationship is far more passionate and interesting than my previous; however, I feel like there's still much to gain from the other one. It is not a toss up, but it's close, and I'm not sure how to deal with this apparently not so unique dilemma. What also makes it tough is that since I am so busy, I don't really have the time to invest in either of these relationships. So in all, it seems like a loss loss situation. Honestly, I'm becoming really tired of the attention. I've had so many opportunities this year to develope interesting and possible intimate relationships with people, but all seem to happen at once. As a result, I feel an incredible amount of pressure not to engage because I feel like I'm already committed to another. But then again, I also feel like I'm limiting myself in not choosing to pursue a path that could lead to a great deal of personal growth. I'm my two most current relationships I was very much divided on this issue. In one, I will not grow as much as I am the one who seems to be teaching all the new ideas, working on issues like body-image and self-confidence, issues I really don't care to teach on as many occasions as I already have. It's incredibly tiring trying to convince someone they're beautiful when they've been told their whole life that their average or even less so. And as someone who is quite confident like myself, I can be an intimidating figure without intending to be. I enjoy helping people, I really do. But I also want to live my life and grow WITH SOMEONE. I don't feel satisfied in a relationship where I'm primarily the active participant. Sometime's I really would like my significant other to choose where to go to dinner or what movie to see. Confidence, self-love, and aspirations FIRST, then talk to me.
So anyway, as one can see, this semester has been quite confusing in virtually every aspect for me. And I'm really glad that it will be ending soon. However, I'm still apprehensive about going to Japan, I don't have solid work plans for the summer (I'm certainly not working in a factory again), and I'm not sure what the future will look like as far as my relationships are concerned. But it's all okay, I really don't have the time to care right now. I have 4 papers to write, 3 presentations, and at least 2 exams to start studying for. And so it begins!
Okay, so I realize this website/service, whatever it is, affords people the opportunity to make comments. And that's fine; however, it is unlikely that I will respond to comments made since (1) this journal is more for me than for you, and (2) I simply do not have the time to be responding to X number of people who may misunderstand and twist my words anyway. So if you really have something crucial to say, just call or come and talk to me.
Later Dudes!