Jul 30, 2005 03:54
I'm falling guys! Hard! I just had the most wonderful evening with Andrea, the girl I've been "sorta seeing". We went to see Charlie and the Chocolate Factory, which was excellent! After grabbing a bite to eat at a small mexican restaraunt, we made our way over to a nearby college and spent the rest of the evening feeding the ducks, swans and geese at a small footbridge overlooking the pond. We had such wonderful conversations late into the night until the point when we realized that we weren't making much sense because we were so tired. Slap happy I guess, a sort of drunkeness. So silly were we.
Wow, she is SO INCREDIBLY BEAUTIFUL, absolutely GORGEOUS. And she's smart, and funny, and has the most wonderful smile. She's real too! She doesn't cake herself in makeup and whine about her body shape. She accepts herself it seems, which is the MOST ATTRACTIVE feature; she's confident in herself and is happy with who she is. And she's not religious, which is always a plus in my book. Spiritual is fine, but rigid categories for the unexplained is annoying. What's wrong with unexplained? Do we have to have an answer to everything?
Anyway, I like her. The whole night the thought loomed in my mind, I longed so much just to feel her touch and at last "let lips be as hands". I've been trying to find the perfect moment, but I always seem to miss it. So many times tonight I found myself screaming in my head,"This is it! Go for it! Just kiss her! Stop being a chicken and stalling and just do it." But I didn't. We're going to hang out with some friends on Sunday. By then, I think we will be ready. I hope anyway.