for the people who have hurt me the most...
well i definatly called that one...
i am so sick of being let down, being hurt, caring, being used, not being good enough, not being that OTHER girl that is perfect for you, not being scene enough, not getting what i deserve back, and being told one thing and then you act on a totally different thing, i hate being confussed, i hate when pepople tell me how much they like me and how good i am... then why am i never good enough for them? im so fucking sick of this shit. (not all this was about you "who ended it last night" if you will)
there is still that one kid who almost fucked me over big time. well he did but ... ill never know if he really did cheat on me or not but i trust him on what he told me about 4 or 5 months ago. i think i will always love that kid to death no matter what happens. best friend... well not ne more. it was nice while it lasted. i love you... i miss you so much...but unfortunatly ill never have that good feeling back again.
...and as for the guy who i fell in love with 4 years ago...he is always the one i know will be there for me....i hate that danny lives 4 fucking hours away and my parents are fucking gay. i love my friends dont get me wrong they keep me happy as hell.... but the one guy who i know will never fuck me over like every other guy, the one person i know who loves me for me and the only thing that keeps me happy and makes me feel like something is worth waiting for or living for my fucking parents wont let me see.... this is bullshit.
im sick of the constant reminders of how you, my parents, can never keep your word. i hate the contradictions and how you dont understand a single fucking thing and how i can be so honest with you and you dont fucking respect that. i hate that you doont trust me going to see himnm when the worst thing that would happen would be for us to kiss ... oh my... a kiss.... like i have never done worse... and yes i know your reading this you always do. he is not a bad kid i will tell you all about it .. but its hard to talk to you when you dont care... so when you read this and you do care go ahead mom or dad tell me talk to me... i doubt it will happen... i try to love you and i know i do but good god... why cant you just let me go see him. i am going to go crazy.
stace i hope thigs work out for both of us and your right at least we can relate and we can get through it together. i love you so much.
valentines day is coming up... looks like its gong to be another lonely year... i cant wait. i want to go see danny.
so basically if u read this... dont fuck me over and dont contradict your self and ill be fine with you. because im sick of trying so hard to be a good person and not getting shit in return.
have a good day.
jessica lynn
i am so sick of being let down, being hurt, caring, being used, not being good enough, not being that OTHER girl that is perfect for you, not being scene enough, not getting what i deserve back, and being told one thing and then you act on a totally different thing, i hate being confussed, i hate when pepople tell me how much they like me and how good i am... then why am i never good enough for them? im so fucking sick of this shit. (not all this was about you "who ended it last night" if you will)
there is still that one kid who almost fucked me over big time. well he did but ... ill never know if he really did cheat on me or not but i trust him on what he told me about 4 or 5 months ago. i think i will always love that kid to death no matter what happens. best friend... well not ne more. it was nice while it lasted. i love you... i miss you so much...but unfortunatly ill never have that good feeling back again.
...and as for the guy who i fell in love with 4 years ago...he is always the one i know will be there for me....i hate that danny lives 4 fucking hours away and my parents are fucking gay. i love my friends dont get me wrong they keep me happy as hell.... but the one guy who i know will never fuck me over like every other guy, the one person i know who loves me for me and the only thing that keeps me happy and makes me feel like something is worth waiting for or living for my fucking parents wont let me see.... this is bullshit.
im sick of the constant reminders of how you, my parents, can never keep your word. i hate the contradictions and how you dont understand a single fucking thing and how i can be so honest with you and you dont fucking respect that. i hate that you doont trust me going to see himnm when the worst thing that would happen would be for us to kiss ... oh my... a kiss.... like i have never done worse... and yes i know your reading this you always do. he is not a bad kid i will tell you all about it .. but its hard to talk to you when you dont care... so when you read this and you do care go ahead mom or dad tell me talk to me... i doubt it will happen... i try to love you and i know i do but good god... why cant you just let me go see him. i am going to go crazy.
stace i hope thigs work out for both of us and your right at least we can relate and we can get through it together. i love you so much.
valentines day is coming up... looks like its gong to be another lonely year... i cant wait. i want to go see danny.
so basically if u read this... dont fuck me over and dont contradict your self and ill be fine with you. because im sick of trying so hard to be a good person and not getting shit in return.
have a good day.
jessica lynn