happy M.L.. DAIYE errrrbooodddyyyyy!
HAPPY MARTIN LUTHER KING DAY!
right so anxiety blows so bad. i keep freaking out about things i probobly shouldnt be. like typing this cuz i cant type and i backspace 3434738473485 times. i am so scared of getting hurt again...I hope i am jsut worrying about nothing... but with my luck im bound to get some bad news. its just i like this kid so much and now i think i am starting to get my hopes up and there might be another better girl like always or im just not ever good enough. i dont know.... i am so stressed about so much. i hate school. i hate the people and teachers... i want to get away.
i love being with my friends. i saw so many people this weekend it was sweet. i always have a good time with my friends. what would i do without them i swear... id die.
i bought jennifer a M.L.K. DAIYE p-resent today. it was sweet. hopefully i get to see her to give it to her but my mom is being gay about me going out tonight.... i have no idea y. i also saw markham at the mall and alexxx took me to work (THANKS ALEX! I LOVE YOU)and then met up with me after work with his friend and we hung out for a bit. then i saw jana and kept her company until i went home. i bought 2 pairs of sick shoes today. omg. wow. just you wait and see!
im really sick of my mom on my ass so much. im not blind i see if something fucking messy and i can hear her she doesnt need to talk to me and her self and then remind me and herself again what is going on and how i need to live my life and do my shit. oh my fucking jah!
but on a good note alora came over today and (read the following in redneck voice>)..."WE FEASTD' LIKE KINGS WE DID" bahahha it was so fucking sweet. then we took shaaaauuurrssss and got all purty for nuttin. gay.. yet very splendeeedddd times we shurred. we took awesoem pivcs.. i have to get them developed though.
im going to go sit in my room and pray that i get a visit tonight... or something... im so bored... if you love me or care about me please come see me.... need to be cheered up really bad.
+jess+
right so anxiety blows so bad. i keep freaking out about things i probobly shouldnt be. like typing this cuz i cant type and i backspace 3434738473485 times. i am so scared of getting hurt again...I hope i am jsut worrying about nothing... but with my luck im bound to get some bad news. its just i like this kid so much and now i think i am starting to get my hopes up and there might be another better girl like always or im just not ever good enough. i dont know.... i am so stressed about so much. i hate school. i hate the people and teachers... i want to get away.
i love being with my friends. i saw so many people this weekend it was sweet. i always have a good time with my friends. what would i do without them i swear... id die.
i bought jennifer a M.L.K. DAIYE p-resent today. it was sweet. hopefully i get to see her to give it to her but my mom is being gay about me going out tonight.... i have no idea y. i also saw markham at the mall and alexxx took me to work (THANKS ALEX! I LOVE YOU)and then met up with me after work with his friend and we hung out for a bit. then i saw jana and kept her company until i went home. i bought 2 pairs of sick shoes today. omg. wow. just you wait and see!
im really sick of my mom on my ass so much. im not blind i see if something fucking messy and i can hear her she doesnt need to talk to me and her self and then remind me and herself again what is going on and how i need to live my life and do my shit. oh my fucking jah!
but on a good note alora came over today and (read the following in redneck voice>)..."WE FEASTD' LIKE KINGS WE DID" bahahha it was so fucking sweet. then we took shaaaauuurrssss and got all purty for nuttin. gay.. yet very splendeeedddd times we shurred. we took awesoem pivcs.. i have to get them developed though.
im going to go sit in my room and pray that i get a visit tonight... or something... im so bored... if you love me or care about me please come see me.... need to be cheered up really bad.
+jess+