One day at a time.
To add to the impending doom, I had a damn near impossible deadline to meet today. Put it this way: the last 3 months of my life has been consumed with work. My hours were getting later and later, to the point where my mom would call me to chat after 10:00 PM and I would still be at work. The last week before the holidays, I was at work until 1:00 - 3:30 AM.
I thought that the big push would end before my holiday break. I really didn't do too much during the holidays other than sleep and see some people back at home. The big deadline for today was unexpected due to the fact that our test team keeps changing their minds on when to end their test phase.
So yeah, after the big announcement about layoffs, I was still working my ass off until 2:00 AM and then rinse and repeat to start again the next day by 8:00 AM. Saturday was my big push, I brought the LOTR trilogy with me to work, the special extended editions. I finished all 6 DVDs and still had time to watch more during my time at work. I finished at 5:00 AM Sunday morning because I knew that if I pushed through, I would only have maybe an hour of work left after my development was tested. It turned out even better, I had to do a quick fix that only took me 10-15 minutes, then I had the rest of the day to myself. Which was good, because I pretty much slept.
My boss called me on Saturday while I was at work to ask how I was feeling about things. I can be pretty candid with her, and I told her that I would rather keep it real than play games, and she has been. According to her, I should be okay. There's an additional layer of politics happening that's unrelated to the layoffs that's irritating me about possible changes with our department (centralization vs. de-centralization). I have a one-on-one with her tomorrow, so I will voice my opinions on the matter and we'll see what happens.
I really need to create and enforce some boundaries with work. I feel like I've lost myself in it. Don't get me wrong, I love what I do, but I'm getting really bitter with my coworkers because I feel like I'm always picking up their slack and everything is left to me because I don't have a child or spouse to come home to. Seriously. I understand the need to leave work for a child, due to child care or the end of the school day. But one of my coworkers left work at 4:00 (after strolling in at 11:00, mind you) because he needed to come home for his wife. She's not an invalid, doesn't require any special assistance, etc. He says he feels like he doesn't spend any time with her because she's actually leaving the house to do things on her own (his wife doesn't work). Seriously?! So yeah, I guess I'm going to have to make sure I come home to feed my cat. At least my cat has special needs because of her diet!
I at least had a good dinner break Friday night. I left work for an hour and a half and met up with Kate to celebrate her birthday. We had a great time chatting, the food was delicious, and she liked her presents. I got her this ceramic tumbler that says "WTF" along with some bars of Rescue Chocolate.
On that note, I should go to bed. I'm trying to reset my clock so I actually wake up in the morning to get to work at a normal time for our time zone. I'm totally operating on Pacific time now.
I thought that the big push would end before my holiday break. I really didn't do too much during the holidays other than sleep and see some people back at home. The big deadline for today was unexpected due to the fact that our test team keeps changing their minds on when to end their test phase.
So yeah, after the big announcement about layoffs, I was still working my ass off until 2:00 AM and then rinse and repeat to start again the next day by 8:00 AM. Saturday was my big push, I brought the LOTR trilogy with me to work, the special extended editions. I finished all 6 DVDs and still had time to watch more during my time at work. I finished at 5:00 AM Sunday morning because I knew that if I pushed through, I would only have maybe an hour of work left after my development was tested. It turned out even better, I had to do a quick fix that only took me 10-15 minutes, then I had the rest of the day to myself. Which was good, because I pretty much slept.
My boss called me on Saturday while I was at work to ask how I was feeling about things. I can be pretty candid with her, and I told her that I would rather keep it real than play games, and she has been. According to her, I should be okay. There's an additional layer of politics happening that's unrelated to the layoffs that's irritating me about possible changes with our department (centralization vs. de-centralization). I have a one-on-one with her tomorrow, so I will voice my opinions on the matter and we'll see what happens.
I really need to create and enforce some boundaries with work. I feel like I've lost myself in it. Don't get me wrong, I love what I do, but I'm getting really bitter with my coworkers because I feel like I'm always picking up their slack and everything is left to me because I don't have a child or spouse to come home to. Seriously. I understand the need to leave work for a child, due to child care or the end of the school day. But one of my coworkers left work at 4:00 (after strolling in at 11:00, mind you) because he needed to come home for his wife. She's not an invalid, doesn't require any special assistance, etc. He says he feels like he doesn't spend any time with her because she's actually leaving the house to do things on her own (his wife doesn't work). Seriously?! So yeah, I guess I'm going to have to make sure I come home to feed my cat. At least my cat has special needs because of her diet!
I at least had a good dinner break Friday night. I left work for an hour and a half and met up with Kate to celebrate her birthday. We had a great time chatting, the food was delicious, and she liked her presents. I got her this ceramic tumbler that says "WTF" along with some bars of Rescue Chocolate.
On that note, I should go to bed. I'm trying to reset my clock so I actually wake up in the morning to get to work at a normal time for our time zone. I'm totally operating on Pacific time now.