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I feel so distraught lately. Nothing seems to be going right. I keep trying to have a positive outlook on life but more things keep happening that bring me down. This year has been extremely hard to handle emotionally cuz of all the changes I'm dealing with. Hannah lives in Jax and that sux. Amanda isnt at school anymore. and that kind of list goes on and on. But this is my senior year and nothing is going as it should. My parents are holding me back so much and there's nothing i can do about it. This year could be so much better if they would support me instead of saying i'm the worst kid ever! It's so stupid and I hate it. Things are just crazy!!!
Another thing I'm dealing with is the fact that I've had to change my whole life around since I've gotten back from Steubenville this summer. It's something that I want to do but it's getting harder for me. The worldly pressures and temptations are bringing me down. Not being able to go to youth group isn't helping at all. I need a community to help build me up. I'm being held back by my parents from having that also. It drives me crazy.
School is insane and i'm falling behind already! It's only two weeks into the year and I'm in a slump. It's so stupid. I'm also feeling like I don't belong any where. Before at school I always had Hannah. Now who do I have?... I don't really have anyone to hang out with ever. I've got friends but it isn't the same. Plus lately people are being crappy friends...Tell me, why would u tell someone stuff that's going on and then not invite them??? That's just mean. I don't know I'm just stressed out and nothin is getting better. So please pray cuz I need any help that I can get before I fall all the way.
I just thought of one good thing...all this crap would probably make for good song writing material...what a thought...
Another thing I'm dealing with is the fact that I've had to change my whole life around since I've gotten back from Steubenville this summer. It's something that I want to do but it's getting harder for me. The worldly pressures and temptations are bringing me down. Not being able to go to youth group isn't helping at all. I need a community to help build me up. I'm being held back by my parents from having that also. It drives me crazy.
School is insane and i'm falling behind already! It's only two weeks into the year and I'm in a slump. It's so stupid. I'm also feeling like I don't belong any where. Before at school I always had Hannah. Now who do I have?... I don't really have anyone to hang out with ever. I've got friends but it isn't the same. Plus lately people are being crappy friends...Tell me, why would u tell someone stuff that's going on and then not invite them??? That's just mean. I don't know I'm just stressed out and nothin is getting better. So please pray cuz I need any help that I can get before I fall all the way.
I just thought of one good thing...all this crap would probably make for good song writing material...what a thought...