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I just got off the phone with Ak-hen, it was so strange, i was making sushi for dinner and the phone rang and i just knew it was him...i thought it was uncanny lol. he seems much happier today, probably because hes away from his living environment for a while to escape his self doubt and hatred. Anyway, i just discovered today EVERYTHING i have worked for this year at school has completely gone to shit...i wanted to do this buisness course but it requires grade 11 and 12 math, but i dropped out of grade 11 and havnt exactly completed it. So now i'm working until i decide what i want to do with my godforsaken life, i was going to go to uni and get my buisness degree so Cody and i would have stable jobs and money flowing in easily, but unfortunately that couldn't happen due to some choices i made and now deeply regret doing, and to be honest, what i dropped out of school was not worth it since nothing came out of it. maybe tomorrow when i wake up someone will give me some good news. my mum and i applied for me a few months ago for me to go to barcelona to do a fashion design course, but then she told me she wouldn't support me because i have horrible fashion sense apparantly according to her so now she won't support me through it, so either way my dreams are fucking crushed. my aunty felt sorry for me and booked me into the hair salon for a protein treatment and shes paying for it. its ok i guess, but everytime something bad happens or im upset she gives me money or buys me things, its great i noe, but i justwant emotional support, id rather that than anything. i just feel like crap, but i love Cody and im going to make our future work as long as he's willing to do the same for me.