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Hmm... I'm sitting here any my new roomie is asleep bc she's sick so I'm trying to be quiet and I ran out of things to do so I was like hey, update LJ. I'm falling in love with The All American Rejects. Do you ever get cd's then not really listen to them for awhile. Yeah, I'm actually listening. If any of you have the Move Along cd, Can't Take It. It's great. So yeah...I hate having that one person I cannot get over. I feel like such a pain in the ass because some of you know exactly who I'm talking about. I hate people who dwell on things and I'm doing it. But I've been thinking of him more and more lately. I can't help feeling things for him and it makes me so mad that I do. It's like I never had a chance to get over him, even though time should have helped me get over him. After the big blowup like a year and a half ago, I was so mad at him and wanted to not have anything to do with him, but he kept pursuing friendship. And here we are now and he's one of my close friends. We don't talk on the phone hardly anymore but we correspond through email atleast once a week because he lives in another state. We used to talk ALL the time. We spent 7 hours on the phone one night.
I was really upset about something a couple of weeks ago and needed an outsiders opinion about it so I wanted to call him, but I was crying-bawling actually and didn't want him to be like "uhh...what do I do?" So I didn't call him, but told him that I almost did in an email. "you wouldnt freak me out if you called me crying i can actually be an understanding, caring person" Like-I know it doesn't mean anything but...I don't even know. I couldn't have exactly called him and told him how lonely I was feeling. Other things too. I told him I loved him when I was drunk. I don't think he took me seriously, thank God. I just need someone new to get over this. Someone new to forget about it all. So again-if anybody wants to hook me up, I'm totally open.
anyhoo, here are some pics from school...
I got my hands stuck in my hair.
That's my new roomie Jenny
That's Maureen and Me when we went out a couple of weeks ago.
I was really upset about something a couple of weeks ago and needed an outsiders opinion about it so I wanted to call him, but I was crying-bawling actually and didn't want him to be like "uhh...what do I do?" So I didn't call him, but told him that I almost did in an email. "you wouldnt freak me out if you called me crying i can actually be an understanding, caring person" Like-I know it doesn't mean anything but...I don't even know. I couldn't have exactly called him and told him how lonely I was feeling. Other things too. I told him I loved him when I was drunk. I don't think he took me seriously, thank God. I just need someone new to get over this. Someone new to forget about it all. So again-if anybody wants to hook me up, I'm totally open.
anyhoo, here are some pics from school...
I got my hands stuck in my hair.
That's my new roomie Jenny
That's Maureen and Me when we went out a couple of weeks ago.